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THE GOOD OLD DAYS...

2007-08-10T18:05:00.000-07:00

I've been feverishly looking for a photo for an interview I'm doing and came across and old disc. It's from 2005. It immediately brought back memories of The SOV 6,5,4,3... And how much I loved them.

Things change but we're all part of a crazy, dysfunctional family.

I miss (some of) y'all...

I'm just sayin...

M*

2007 L.A. PRIDE!!!!!!

2007-06-12T04:47:00.000-07:00

This was one of the greatest weekends of my life. I was asked by Christopher Street West to host L.A. Pride 2007. What does that mean? Technically that means I stand on the Main Stage and I, with my pal, Ben Patrick Johnson, introduce the music acts performing and banter and keep the crowd entertained while the next act sets up to perform. Being asked to do this during Pride Weekend the weekend of the Parade the weekend where gay men and women and their supporters come out to celebrate our lives was momentous.

You know life is about labels. Some you create; model, actor, reality star, fashion stylist, TV host. Let's not talk about the ones that are foisted upon you. Some you are born with; African American, male, homosexual. It took a long time for me to get to the place where I could admit to being homosexual. Then it took a long time to accept that this is my truth. This is who I am. And after this weekend I now fully, truthfully can say I embrace it. That no matter what other people say or do, that I am gay and I love who I am. My sexuality is not who or what I am. It's a part of what makes me who I am. And I am PROUD of that part of me. I'm proud to be out in the media and in the world. To be able to say I'm homosexual. Not better or worse than anyone else. I just am.

Love y'all...

I'm just saying...

M*

No More Blogger....

2007-05-01T11:57:00.000-07:00

FOR ALL THE NEWS THAT'S FIT TO PRINT ON ME PLEASE GO TO MARCELLASREYNOLDS.COM!

SMOOCHES! AND ALL IS LOVE!

M*

CATCHING UP!

2007-04-19T10:10:00.000-07:00

So as usual I'm crazy behind on blogging. I've been so (blessedly) busy lately. Right from Tyra I went into a pilot for vh1. Right from that I did an episode of Style Network's, On A Date. Toss in looking for a new apartment and events and you have a frazzled Marcellas. Oh and I just finished the Master Cleanse which makes a bitch cranky and I've been dating and I'm still raising money for Bowling For Angels. I'm so busy I'm now officially sick. I have an ear infection. The same painful ear infection I had during Big Brother All-Stars. Ugh. I'm on Avolex, which knocks me out cold. And, not to be indelicate, sends you to the loo all the time. Hey I'm human. @ least this time there aren't cameras on me!

Watch my epi of The Tyra Banks Show April, 30th! Check your local listings for time! Check it out. It's cute... And fun!

First Greg Endries and I attended Trevor Project's "Global Warming Ready" event. It was a fun night of shopping sponsored by Diesel, with a portion of the evenings proceeds going to The Trevor Project. I got to hang out and chat with Tony Tripoli from Fashion House and Doug Spearman from Noah's Arc who I adore. And I didn't buy a thing. I'm proud of myself. I have a problem. I'm that guy who has things in his closet with the tags still on them. My earliest childhood memory is of my grandmother hiding stuff she purchased from my grandfather. Followed very closely by my mother always going, "What is this?" "When did I buy that?" I think I uttered my first word in Marshall Field's. "SA-leee..." I come from a long line of women who would say their happiest moments took place @ Neiman Marcus. My happiest moments always occur @ Barneys. Especially when I can get into a 32 jean. Which by the way I can now because I dropped 10 lbs in 7 days on the Master Cleanse. Oprah once said, "Nothing tastes as good as thin." She right. Because I look good in these jeans.

Fast forward to Legendary Bingo. The Angel Mafia turned out in full glam force for Legendary Bingo. Final #s aren't in but the evening raised close to $3,000 which puts us near $15,000. And we aren't stopping til we hit 20 grand! Bowling For Angels is next Sunday, the 21st. Danielle and James are both flying in for the event. We are bowling the 10 a.m. shift. What a shame...We'll be drunk and crazy and talking trash by 10:15. It should be a blast and I'm looking forward to seeing everyone. Kimberly Caldwell will be there, who I never see enough. I wanna know what she really thinks about Sanjaya. Bingo was funny. Valerie's stalker showed up. He kept buying her drinks. I was like, "Nobody let Valerie out of your site!" I usually date/sleep with my stalkers. I find it drives them off quite nicely. Hey, I'm a handful. I own that. Erika and Zen were gorgeous and great sports. And I now have another straight boy crush: Adam Larson. He's so cute. And thick. And funny. And did I mention thick? He's pretty yummy.

This weekend was the GLAAD Awards and it was also Q Me Con. I have been fighting an ear infection and it's kicking my butt. I was scheduled to go to The GLAAD Awards as Big Brother was nominated but couldn't make it. Besides I knew I wasn't winning. And yeah I said I. I mean really is there another gay house guest? And the clip that got the show nominated is me talking about my crush on Kaysar and my appearance on All-Stars. For the past 5 years I've been Marcellas from Big Brother. No matter what else I've achieved I'm still him. My own ground-breaking show on BET, numerous TV appearances. It all comes back to BB. I will say this BB is very good about being inclusive. They do understand that America isn't just white with a sprinkling of non-accented Latino.

So I opted out of The GLAAD Awards and the party that it was widely reported I'd be attending. I slept the sleep of the dead. This morning/afternoon I attended Q Me Con. It's touted as "the only multi-day conference designed specifically for industry professionals working in, or looking
to break into, LGBTQ content creation for the burgeoning queer TV, music, film and new digital media arenas." Hey I need a gig so anywhere deals could possibly be made I'm showing up. I was asked by Carey Sherrell from The Apprentice to sit on a panel called "The Real Queer World: Gay Reality Celebs Speak Out!" It was a cute group that included Derek Artea, The Apprentice 6, Chad Darnell, Casting Director, Geo Herrera, MTV's The 70's House and Patrick Vaughn from The Amazing Race. We just dished a bit on our shows, why we did them and what life is like now that we are back in the real world. It was awesome. It was covered by Here! TV so I'm sure some of the video shot will end up there.

And now I'm off to fix a mistake on my taxes. Of course I've waited til the last possible sec. When all I wanna do is have a big fat banana damn split with extra nuts but I gotta stay in these 32s so I'll have a not-so-yummy protein bar that is supposed to taste like chocolate but is eerily reminiscent of bark.

I'm just saying...

M*

THE MONTH THAT IS...

2007-04-04T20:35:00.000-07:00

Okay so so much for me blogging everyday! I have been crazed. I thought fashion week would end and I'd be able to chill out. No such luck! Between working with Project Angel Food on Bowling For Angels, trying to find a new apartment, working out and actual work, I'm @ my wits end. Well not really. I love being busy.

Where to begin...Last week, Thursday to be exact, I achieved one of my dreams. I was asked to be on-air stylist on The Tyra Banks Show. I actually got to work on the Tyra show. With Tyra. Not be in the same room as her. Not be behind the scenes, dressing her. I actually got to be on the same stage and work with Tyra Banks. Be still my beating heart. It was the highlight of my on-air hosting career thus far. It was just a perfect experience. You know how when you dream something, it's great, the best it could be? This was even better than that. Tyra was an angel. She was so kind and funny. Warm and real. It's so funny to watch someone on TV and think you know how they are or are going to be. And then you meet them. That's certainly happened to me with fans of Big Brother! Everyone on the show was just amazing. It was truly one of the best days on my life.

Anyway I'm not going to tell you what happened on the show. You must watch. It airs in May during sweeps week. And it is a hoot!

I did Reality Remix yesterday with my new pal, Zen from Work Out. We were on talking about Bowling For Angels and Legendary Bingo. If you are in L.A. please come play bingo with some of The Angel Mafia on April 11th @ Hamburger Mary's on Santa Monica Blvd. I'll be there, as will Zen and Erika from Work Out, Adam Larson from Road Rules, Beth from The Real World and The Gauntlet, and oh hell most of us will be there drinking and playing bingo. Ethan and Benjamin, the Ginch Gonch boys, will be there playing ball boy in their undies! There is also a silent auction and tons of prizes with most of the monies going to Project Angel Food. Danielle will be donating a beautiful Tiffany bracelet that Lisa (winner BB3) gave her, for auction. It has a BB3 inscription on the back. I love that. Lisa wins $500,000 and gives Danielle a $200 bracelet. Hell if I'd been more up on what D and J were up to, I wonder what I'd have gotten. Well I'm still convinced had I made it to the end I would have beaten anyone. Water meet bridge. My episode of Reality Remix airs April 17th. And it will be controversial because of course I talk about Big Brother All-Stars. The Wilhellians will have their knickers in a twist. Damn that Kennedy!

Donate damn it! Click right here! Every $5 provides a meal to someone in near desperate need. Smooch!

Let me wrap it up. Tyra was great. I shot a pilot for vh1 last night. Can't talk about it, signed confidentiality agreement. Next week I shoot Style Networks, On A Date. The model episode. Should be a blast. And my latest episode of How Do I Look, where I style a mother and daughter airs next month. Let's see if my streak as the Susan Lucci of How Do I Look continues.

Gotta go. Gotta work and look for a new apartment! Life comes at you a million miles an hour.

I'm just saying...

M*

FASHION (WEEK) KILLS...

2007-03-23T18:32:00.000-07:00

So I've been doing the L.A. Fashion Week thing. It's been kinda crazy. Diane and I went to 2 shows yesterday; Oligo Tissew and Kevan Hall. Oligo was... Well if you can't say anything nice. Wait, when I was little my mom bumped into a friend on the street who'd just given birth. That baby was ugly. I'd never seen an ugly baby before. I recoiled. My mother who was desperate to say something, anything nice said, "Ooooh that's a pretty blanket." "Where did you get that blanket?" So I'll say this about Tissew, "Ooh that girl in the front row next to Paula Abdul is so pretty." "Who is she?" Hayden Panettiere.

Kevan Hall was gorgeous. And in the strangest twist of fate Diane and I did not get front row. We got seats in the back. 3rd row. You gonna tell me we aren't more relevant than... No. I won't play that game. It is what it is. That's that bullshit fame stuff that does numbers on your head. That's okay. We got pictures taken and did a few interviews and even talked to Ben the ever-so-cute editor of WeLoveBeauty.com which is one of my fave sites. And my Diane looked gorgeous. She rocked a vintage 80's party dress and gave you Dynasty all over the place. A modern Sammy Jo!

After that it was off to Boulevard 3 with the peeps from J. Lindeberg for the Fashion TV, Bleu Model Management, and Alex Quinn hosted, "Pinque Cirque" party and show. I got drunk. Hammered actually. Snookered. Which for me means I had 2 cocktails. Okay I wasn't drunk. But it sounds good. Diane and I had a blast. We also bumped into Howie. People think Howie and I still have beef. Some fans saw Diane and I walk in and then speak to Howie and thought we'd come to blows. All-Stars is over people. There's nothing to see here. Move along. We have.

The Boulevard 3 party was like reality hell. I mean there were more reality stars in one place than a reality convention. I generally like my fellow dlisters. And I was so excited to meet Michelle from ANTM. She was so sweet and excited to meet me. @ first I didn't know who she was. She was just this tall, thin, goregous girl screaming my name. And then I recognized her and we were 2 idiots jumping up and down screaming each others names! It was cute. Jerri Manthey who is one of my faves was there. And the cute girl from Survivor whose brother was on Project Runway. And Ryan and Burton from Survivor (both of whom I wanna sleep with). I'm just saying... Oh and ton of Top Model alums who are like cockroaches. I mean they were everywhere. You can't swing a stick in L.A. without hitting a reality star. But don't try that. You might hit me.

Once again I rolled in @ 3 a.m. This is really getting quite ridiculous. Tonight I have one more show and that is it. Oh and one more party. But that's it I swear.

Next week I shoot my 1st epi of my new gig. Once it's in the can I'll tell y'all about it. And I'll even give ya pics. It's good. I promise.

I gotta do a facial. And an under-eye treatment. Drinking, smoking and hanging with models is not good for the skin.

I'm just saying...

M*

WHEN EX-"SUPERMODELS" ATTACK... L.A. FASHION WEEK: DAY ONE.

2007-03-20T11:52:00.000-07:00

So yesterday was my 1st day @ L.A. Fashion Week Fall 2007. I only went to see one show and ended up spending the entire day there. Front row @ every show. The weird thing about L.A. Fashion Week is no real celebs actually attend. Yeah you get the stray Eva Longoria sighting but you are lucky if you get JC Chasez or Paris or Tara. Sorry. Not really A-listers.

And you get the wacky Janice Dickinson... More on that later.

So first I saw 2(x)ist underwear. Boys in the they knickers! I'm all in. It was a hot show. Though it started with a marching band. And they were not cute and not in their underwear. Then it was a high-school dance troupe. Couldn't dance. You know how the girls sorta have the moves but not really. Like they learned them from an Eric Nies hosted "Learn To Move" video from MTV. And then there was the Laker girls. Again not really dancers. And they wore hose with their shorts. Granny.

And then boys in their naughties! The show was hot. And JP Calderon from Survivor was in it. He looked amazing. But the star was the hot blond with the big ass! His tighties could barely contain that thing. It was perfect and flawless. Brothers must love him! That ass was like sunshine. Spectacular!

The next show was one of the big shows of the week, Ed Hardy. I love Christian Audigier. He's a great, fun guy and has been so sweet to me for years. His show was just what you expect from Ed Hardy; not ground breaking but cute stuff. All styled with a circus theme. But here's where things go awry: Christian comes out for his bow with porn superstar and very nice girl, Jenna Jameson. He gets to the end of the runway and all of a sudden Janice Dickinson, who has been whooping and hollering the entire show jumps up on Christian, knocking Jenna, who is in easily 5 inch stilettos out of the way! During the finale! And Jenna is just stunned and not knowing what the heck to do leaves the runway! It was crazy! I talked to Jenna after and we were both like, "What the hell was that?!!" And Jenna goes, "Yeah she stole my moment." BTW Jenna is tiny and she is gorgeous and her haircut is crazy! The hottest bob. And she is sooo sweet. I can't say enough nice things about her.

So I won't bore you with every show. I saw Tart. Cute. The best show I saw that day. It was a little reminiscent of Multiples, from back in the day. Or Units. Y'all remember that? It was jersey and you could wear the skirt as a headband or bandeau or belt. 4 colors a season! When I worked in retail in high school the Express girls would make fun of the multiples girls. God I was a queen even high school. But I was senior homecoming king. Damn it...

Last night I ended up going with my publicists to the 2 Be Free show. I have to be honest, 2 Be Free makes me ill. It reminds me of last summer. Janelle wore it all the time. It gets on my nerves in the same way Juicy Couture does. All that tacky writing all over the place. And it's nothing more than sweats. Really expensive sweats that have made 4 uninspired designers very wealthy. Literally those are the kinda clothes you look @ and go, "I could have done this!" And when you see girls in it, who have never gone to the gym a day in their life with Juicy written across their ass? I always think, "Sucker!" "How much did you pay for that?" I also think, "Ugh." "Who wants a juicy ass?" I'm just saying...

Of course I get there to do the red carpet and I'm behind Paris Hilton and the lovely (Um mm... No.) Tara Reid. At least she was dressed appropriately. She was on the carpet with one of the designers who is actually very hot. Hot in that faux L.A. hipster, grunge, scruffy, skinny jean, kinda big ass, washed out blacks, "I just rolled out of bed", slightly Brandon Davis oily, I'm wearing Costume National from Barney's shoes, kinda way. I'd have done him. So I had to wait till those two wonderful children of God did their thing and then 2 absolute hos cut the line! And me and the paprazzi was like, "Who you?" Just because you were invited doesn't mean you get to have a moment in front of the cameras. And these were skanks. I didn't want to walk where they treaded. Not without Lysol. Note to self: Bring Lysol and Purell with you to events. Publicist can keep in purse...

Once inside, my adorable love Diane was there! Love. Love. Love. Always so excited to see her. I almost cried when I did. She is one of those people to me that make the world a better place because she exists. So Diane and I go to the show which ended up being a good. Paris was in it. She opened and closed it. Tara Reid, Robby Williams (out of rehab and taller than I thought he would be), Bobby Trendy (a nightmare in the same crazy tulle sparkle outfit he wears everywhere) and Jenna Jameson were there. And oh my gosh, Hayden Panettiere was there. Across from Diane and I in the front row drinking a Tab. And then a rap song by Dr. Dre came on and she was puttin 'em up! Like they do in rap videos! Now I love her even more.

I didn't get home til 3. After Boulevard 3 we ended up @ Social and after that Teddy's for the Imitation Of Christ fashion show after party. I'm kinda show'd out. I'm not going to any today. But I will see Oligo Tissew and Kevan Hall on Thursday.

Oh and I met a guy. African. And hot as hell. Really extraordinary. Sexy. Smelled really good. I know that because he got a little too close @ Boulevard 3.

I'm just saying...

M*

THE WEEK THAT WAS...

2007-03-18T21:36:00.000-07:00

So I've decided that for a bit, I'm going to try, TRY, to blog everyday. I really don't know how people can do it everyday. I feel like I lead an exciting life but talking about it everyday? Is there anyone who has anything that interesting to say? I love myself but that's a lot.

So here goes:
I hate people who use "your" instead of "you're." That is a common grammatical mistake that irks me. Hate is a bit strong. Pity? No... Whatever! It bothers me.

Apparently I caused a tempest in a teapot twice last week. I talked about how real reality TV is during an interview with Ben Patrick Johnson on Monday. I got in real trouble for kissing Ben. But it was innocent! I swear. I then went further on the same topic during an interview for a Montreal Talk-radio station, CJAD with Peter Anthony Holder. Hey my truth is my truth. I don't pull punches. And I won't lie. Unless I'm being paid for it. ;)

I recently purchased a king-size mattress and am a slave to it. It's huge. No matter which way I lay upon it I don't touch the edge. And it's the best when there is more than one person in it. I got an Englander from Mattress King in West LA. And yeah I got an amazing deal because I'm "Marcellas from Big Brother." Finally that helped. I love it so much I kinda regret not getting a Cal-King! Size matters baby.

The glorious thing about the new mattress is new sheets! King-size sheets. And I veered away from my normal white! Of course I got white as well as an amazing 500 thread count chocolate brown (eerily close to my own skin tone) and an amazing, gorgeous navy. I also got new pillows. New, new, new. I sleep like a prince!

I love my Sidekick 3! Love it, love it, love it. And I've become that guy that can't let it go. Who will text and surf the net anytime. On the toilet (j/k), front row @ a fashion show, @ the cinema. Hell I walked 4 miles yesterday and managed to return emails, order DDF Glycolic Body Lotion @ Nordstrom.com and make tea reservations @ The Peninsula.

My MySpace friend Steven asked me to help him with a paper. You know I will always help a cute coed. The paper is on Paris Hilton of all things. Here's the request:
I need your help again! I have to write a research paper on Paris Hilton, and well since you're the only person I know who's actually met her and you have a pretty good understanding of how crazy Hollywood can be, I thought I'd ask you.

So if you get the chance... could you answer these questions for me? You can be as mean or nice as you want. Thanks!

1. In your opinion, why is Paris famous?
2. Do you feel that the media portrays her differently then she really is?
3. Do you think the negative press towards Paris hurts or helps her "career"?
4. One of Paris' main fan bases is gay men, in your opinion, why is that?
5. Do you believe that most of the things Paris does is for publicity, such as the sex video, the Nicole Richie feud, her t-mobile phone being hacked, etc etc.
6. Why do you think she is despised by so many people, yet still one of the most famous women in the world?

Thanks again! Any help would be appreciated!

And here are my answers:
1. In your opinion, why is Paris famous?
We've entered a phase when everyone no matter who, thinks they deserve their 15 minutes. Everyone not only wants to be Paris or Britney or Lindsay, they think they deserve it. Shows like The Simple Life and American Idol make that kid sitting @ home think fame is easy and steps to get it can be skipped. Voila, "I'm Famous." Wasn't it Andy Warhol who said, "In the future everyone will be famous for 15 minutes?" He'd love what's happening right now. Also with the advent of reality TV and tabloid reporting we need more "celebs."

2. Do you feel that the media portrays her differently then she really is?
I don't think you can really ever know anyone. I do however think that Paris is crafting her public persona.

3. Do you think the negative press towards Paris hurts or helps her "career"?
Press is Paris' career. It's when no one covers her on any level, that she has a problem.

4. One of Paris' main fan bases is gay men, in your opinion, why is that?
I wasn't aware of that. I thought gay men had taste. But wait let's dig deeper into the gay psyche. For most gay men the ultimate male is young, blond, buff. A Ken doll. Paris is, in a way, the female equivalent of that. A real-life Barbie for an idealized Ken.

5. Do you believe that most of the things Paris does is for publicity, such as the sex video, the Nicole Richie feud, her t-mobile phone being hacked, etc etc.
I think she is crafting a career and money-making persona. She has mastered the "no such thing as a bad thing" parable. Life hands you lemons, make pink champagne lemonade.

6. Why do you think she is despised by so many people, yet still one of the most famous women in the world?
NaS, the rapper said, "People hate what they can't understand." He also said they, "Fear what they can't conquer." Some people are jealous of anyone born with a silver spoon in their mouth. And Paris stands for the lowest, most common things an enlightened society should be about. And yet she exists and is unapologetic about it. I think that irks some. I happen to like her because @ the end of the day she shows up. She does her job.

I like Paris Hilton. I've met her 3 times. Each time she was unerringly sweet and kind. And you know what, she gives reality trash hope. Hope that we can spin this thing into something else. So brava for you Paris.

Alright enough for tonight. I'm going to L.A. Fashion Week tomorrow and I'm sure I'll have lots to talk about after!

Talk soon...

M*

ALL THE NEWS THAT'S FIT TO PRINT...

2007-03-14T20:02:00.000-07:00

I'm in First place on The Angel Mafia. Zen Gray from Work Out is behind me. Adam Larson from The Real World just joined. As well as Drew Daniel from Big Brother 5. Word on the street is Justin Guarini is joining soon. The two women that beat me last year are ahead of me again. Ugh. I wanna win. I can't win Big Brother but can't I please raise the most money for charity? Especially this one. I'm passionate about the work it does.

Apparently James is talking tons of trash. A bit is cool but keep a lid on it Eyebrow Boy. From what James says, the Marhellians have been attacking him. As long as they aren't as bad as the Winellians! Those peeps is crazy.

Has it only been six months since my summer in purgatory? Time heals all wounds. It feels like a lifetime ago. Janelle sent me a text last night. She and Howie were watching the show. I never watched it. I think I saw the first week and then the finale. I lived it so I felt I didn't have to.

I'm doing an interview Thursday on a Montreal radio station, CJAD Newstalk Radio. It's @ 11:05 p.m. Pacific. If you are in Canada please listen. You can also listen on-line by going to the site. It should be fun and irreverent. Kinda like me. I'm following in the illustrious steps of Chicken George! The interviewer, Peter Anthony Holder, got to me through Ben Patrick Johnson, whose video blog I did on Monday.

What else? I broke up with a boy and we got back together. And now we are apart again. Communication is key. And so is good sex. No "Break-up Playlist" this time.

Next week is L.A. Fashion Week. Of course I will be going. Imitation Of Christ, Christian Audigier, Ed Hardy, Kevan Hall... I'm very excited.

And what else? Hm mm... I just booked a big on-air styling gig which I'm not going to talk about until it's shot and in the can! But it should be good. Knock on wood. And you can catch re-runs of me on How Do I Look all this month. Things are good.

If you haven't yet please donate to me @ Project Angel Food, Bowling For Angels. Last week I went to a Postal Carrier's Union meeting in downtown L.A. I went with my dear Lauren Custer to raise awareness about Bowling For Angels and Project Angel Food. It was surprisingly fun. The people were amazingly kind and talk about a glimpse into a world I'd never seen before. This was a real straight up union meeting @ a union hall. Minutes were read. Budgets gone over. "All in favor say I." Hopefully they will set up a team. And one thing I learned from that meeting, your mail carrier is a lot of fun out of the uniform! Tomorrow night? A gay bowling league! Maybe my future husband bowls?

So that's it. A glimpse @ what's going on with me. A lot. A little. Something.

I'm just saying...

M*

SPONSOR ME AS I KICK REALITY BUTT!

2007-03-02T09:01:00.000-08:00

Click here and join The Angel Mafia MySpace page!

And if you haven't donated please sponsor me to bowl as I kick the reality ass of James and Danielle from Big Brother All-Stars, Kimberly Caldwell from American Idol, Zen Grey from Work Out and that cute guy from the show with the guy with the crazy hair that looks like that cute guy from Big Brother... ;)

Go to my personal page and donate!

Smooches!

M*

SPEND OSCAR NIGHT WITH ME!!!!!

2007-02-22T18:06:00.000-08:00

If you are in Los Angeles come hang out and cheer on your Oscar faves! Tickets are $20 and a portion of the proceeds benefit local LGBT charities.

And don't forget I'm Bowling For Angels! Please click here and donate!

Smooch!

M*

THE ANGEL MAFIA!

2007-02-12T18:46:00.000-08:00

Hi just a quick blurb to announce more additions to The Angel Mafia! My girl Beth S. from just about everything has joined. You may also know Beth as she produces the wildly popular Sexiest Men and Women of Reality Calendar each year. Yep, she was the one who convinced me to strip it down and lather it up in 2006. My bud Dylan Vox is bowling. Dylan is a hoot and is one of my closest friends. He's on the Here! TV show, Dante's Cove. And last but by no means least is the first member of the mafia from The Apprentice, Carey Sherrell. My girl Omarosa describes him as "a baby Marcellas." Carey is impossibly hot so I take that as a compliment.

The Mafia is hot and getting hotter all the time. We're gonna be the cutest team! Now let's hope we can raise some cash!

Happy early Valentines Day!

M*

"THEY KEEP PULLING ME BACK..."

2007-02-10T12:24:00.000-08:00

The Angel Mafia is proud to announce the return of Valerie Penso from Tempatation Island and Battle of the Network Reality Stars. Valerie was a member of the "Mafia" from 2006. Can't bowl to save her life but she looks gorgeous trying! She also raised a lot of cash last season. She's one of my best friends and I'm so happy she is volunteering again this year.

We are also proud to announce Danielle Reyes from Big Brother All-Stars has joined the Mafia! If D bowls and raises money as fiercely as she plays Big Brother, the other members of the Mafia better step up they game! Big time! It means a lot to me that Danielle would join us. Love you D!

So far the The Angel Mafia is Chad Darnell, our fearless leader, me, Danielle Reyes, Kimberly Caldwell, Sarah Kozer and Valerie Penso. James and Mike Boogie from BB All-Stars, JP from Survivor and Jai from Queer Eye are confirmed but dragging their sexy butts registering!

So please don't wait! Donate. If your fave reality personality hasn't registered yet you can make a general team donation.

I'm just saying...

M*

I'M BOWLING FOR ANGELS AGAIN!!!!!

2007-02-07T15:23:00.000-08:00

Once again it is time for Project Angel Food's Bowling With Angels. As you may know this is my favorite charity. They feed thousands of terminally ill people hot meals each day. The Angel Mafia is back! I am co-captain with my dear friend Chad Darnell! Last year we raised almost $10,000 for the charity. This year we wanna double that!

The event is fun and the money you help raise helps so many. Click here to donate. It's easy and quick! Come out and support your fave reality stars! Erika did it last year. She's coming back. Mike Boogie is bowling with me this year! And so many other amazing reality stars from many different shows are joining as we speak. One of my new friends Tina (a fan of Big Brother and a member of my forum) actually started a team last year. I encourage you to do that!

You know a lot of things are said about me. I am a lot of things. But one thing I believe in is helping others. Please join me in supporting this charity. Food is life.

M*

THE CHAT HEARD AROUND THE WORLD...

2007-02-06T12:59:00.000-08:00

Okay so maybe that title is a bit too much. Hey I have a flair for the dramatic! Last night I chatted @ JokersUpdates. It's billed as my last chat ever about BB3 and All-Stars. Yeah, it's probably like Barbra Streisand never touring again but whatever!

Anyway here is my addendum to the chat. Get me with the big fancy words. At least part of that college edumacaten didn't got to waste!

Chats move too fast. And you can't really type out detailed explanations to your answers. Therefore I am expanding on a few of the major themes from my chat @ JU.

To further explain the cheating in the first veto comp: We were expressly told (during the reading of the rules off camera) not to hint or give anyone a veto. The players were also told not to speak to each other. Jase handed Janelle a sofa cushion which contained a veto. Janelle was like "What?" And Jase said, "There's a veto in here." Allison and Danielle both went to the producers about it. Allison was very vocal about her anger. I know several of the HGs talked about it but I'm sure we went to flames or other cameras.

From what I hear from the house guests these were the same rules that were given for the Voodoo Veto comp. The rules that are read on camera often differ from the ones that are given to the house guests by the producers off camera before a competition starts. I think this is what James was so upset about. And he has a right to be upset! He got evicted! He went out under unfair circumstances! The exact way I left. If Erika's HoH hadn't been reversed I wouldn't have gone home. CT only went after me week 6 to save themselves. Erika would never have put me up.

About House Calls: I certainly hope my candor doesn't cost me House Calls. It's a show that was created with me in mind as the host. For 2 seasons I not only hosted it but helped to produce it. All of the things that I've said about BB are things other HGs have also said and are in fact true.

It is a strange fact of life that people can be punished for truth. For honesty. I hope this isn't one of those cases. I think that I was edited poorly because I was so vocal about certain things that occurred. The victim of "Bad Parent" as it were; "Stop crying or I shall give you something to cry about."

But as Maya Angelou wrote:
Still I Rise

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

About Will/Janelle/whomever: I stated on my blog months ago I thought Will and Erin would be engaged soon. I said that to piss off the Willnellians. Or whatever they call themselves. What I hope is that Will and Janelle find happiness in their lives. No matter who with. They are great people and obviously inspire others. The bigger point is it's their business. The show ended. Let it go. Stop pushing your ghetto fairy tale fantasy. And stop being so easily manipulated. I'm just saying...

Here's my take on the Flirtmance: Janelle made decisions that were better for Will than for her alliance. Now let's breakdown who was in her alliance. Me (secretly), Howie, James and Kaysar. Janelle knew I wanted CT gone. They wanted me gone. I knew they were over-extended and had no intention of honoring any deal with anyone other than each other. A lot has been made of my dinner with Mike and Will before BB. As the producers told us before the show, if you have a pre-existing deal with someone establish it on the show. Was there ever a conversation between me and CT about getting to the end? No. That dinner flew out the window the moment we walked through the doors. By week 3 Mike told anyone who would listen he was gonna put Janelle and I up. And to be honest I went to dinner with them but never believed in a million years Mike was gonna make it onto All-Stars.

The point is this; everyone had deals going in. Did I ever say to CT once the show started "you and I to the end?" Or even let's work together? No. Because I was smart enough to know that was wasted breath. And Will and Mike were smart enough to know I wasn't buying what they were selling.

If Janelle had honored her promise to Me, Howie, James and Kaysar week four and put up CT it would have taken the heat off The 4 and maybe brought them another week. Her refusal to put up Will, to turn on Erika and then her helping Mike win the veto and then nominate Diane, mobilized the "Floaters." And really turned the house against her and The 4.

One more thing. I talked trash about Janelle because I didn't want people to think we were working together. She did the same to me. It's called strategy. If the entire house is saying they are getting rid of someone then you for damn sure better say it too. Or you make yourself a target. I would never have nominated Janelle for eviction. I told her that. I said it in the diary room but lo and behold that never made the cut because I'm the "bad friend" in a game where you have no friends. I also, mistakenly, told Danielle I wouldn't put Janelle up. It was my undoing. Well part of it anyway...

On week 4 throwing the HoH; Yeah I threw it. My strategy was to go under the wire as long as I possibly could. I wanted to be the Drew of All-Stars. Be cool with everyone. Go back and forth between alliances causing a bit of friction and just stay the hell out of the line of fire! I knew the answer to the question. But I also felt confident that Janelle would keep the promise she made to me and The 4 to put up CT. She promised us that! It's why I eliminated Kaysar and not her. And I loved Diane. I felt responsible for her leaving. If I hadn't ducked that HoH because I didn't want to be the one to put up and send out a member of CT, Diane would have been safe. Yes, in retrospect I shouldn't have cared who went as long as it wasn't me but I love Diane. I'm human. I took that hard. I was pissed @ Janelle. That doesn't mean I don't love Janelle. I get to be angry with her decision.

And let's not forget she realized her error and how it impacted Howie and I. She apologized to us when she evicted Will. If she'd gotten rid of one member of CT week 4 or even week 6, I would have been there longer and so would Howie. The 2 peeps who wouldn't have put her up.

I voted for Erika to win All-Stars because she answered the final question best. She helped Janelle see the light and get rid of Will. Will came to sequester and said "Janelle spanked his ass but Erika was behind it." He admitted it was Erika who did it. Mike's answer to my last question was "My most strategic move was not using the special power." Excuse me? What? If it weren't for Danielle telling you the answer you wouldn't have had it! And then how is it strategy to not use it when you don't have to? Sorry, bad answer. I also thought Mike only got as far as he did because of Will. Was the jury rewarding Mike's game play or Will's? My vote wasn't personal. I do not dislike Mike. My vote was based on the best answer to my final question. If Mike had said, "riding Will's coattails," or "being Will's friend" I would have given him my vote because that was good strategy.

One thing I learned after season 6 and All-Stars is this; give the house guests a break. They are human. Treat them with the same respect you want. And deserve. I think that lesson will make me a better House Calls host. Hate the game not the player. Actually don't hate either as they are both entertaining! Especially don't hate the player since you don't know the player and they never did anything to you. All the ill will you point @ the house guests says less about them and so much about you. And the same can be said about too much "adoration."

This was my last chat about BB3 and All-Stars. I risked it all. I told my truth as I saw it. Doing this chat was my way of expunging lingering disappointment @ the way All-Stars played out. It's also a way to give the finger to my detractors. I'm not bitter. BB AS was difficult but it was awesome too. Hell I can't believe I lasted as long as I did (either season)! Will and I thought we'd be out week one and two!

Big Brother has been an amazing vehicle for me. I've gotten much from it and lost some too... But it doesn't define me. 12 weeks, no wait 22 weeks out of my life do not define who I am. That story has yet to be told.

MY LAST CHAT!!! @ LEAST ABOUT BIG BROTHER...

2007-02-04T22:04:00.000-08:00

I'll be chatting @ Jokersupdates.com tomorrow!

From Jokers...

In his ONLY chat appearance since Big Brother All-Stars, Jokers presents Big Brother All-Stars/House Calls Host Marcellas
According to Marcellas, this will also be his FINAL chat appearance.
Come join us for this rare and very special chat!
Date: Monday February 5, 2007
Time: 8pm EST/5pm PST

I was asked by a very good friend to chat @ JU. My first instinct was to say no, but in an effort to purge some lingering feelings about this summer I thought why not.

Please come and support me if you are around!

M*

MORE ON THE OSCAR NOMS...

2007-01-31T00:54:00.000-08:00

So I’m just gonna rift this off the top of my head.

Dreamgirls rocked. And no I’m not one of those gay guys who loves a musical. I hate musicals. I hated Rent. I can’t stand that “5 million six hundred twenty five thousand“…Ugh… The moment I hear that I go running and screaming away. Lived in NYC a million times. Never saw a musical. Cats is my nightmare. Phantom Of The Opera? I’d die first. I’m also not one of those gays that likes… Well let’s put it this way I wasn’t a fan of Brokeback Mountain. Why the hell didn’t they just move to San Francisco? Or New York? Or hell Miami? Though Miami gets too hot in the summer for my tastes. Anyway I liked Dreamgirls. Jamie Foxx sucked. Horridly miscast. And he is really unattractive. We don’t need to see that face, that big ever again. Actually this was only the second movie I’ve ever seen him in. I saw Collateral, which didn’t suck. And Jamie and the ever-annoying Jada Pinkett-Smith were very good in it.

Taye Diggs should have been Curtis. Bill Condon always goes for the big name to the detriment of the movie. How bad were Richard Gere and John C. Reilly in Chicago? And Queen Latifa as the Prison Matron? MISCAST.

I also thought Eddie Murphy was doing his James Brown shtick from old-school Saturday Night Live. “I‘m gonna get in the hot tub. Unh.” Good God. He was however, very affecting in the scene where he’s about to shoot up. One good scene should not an Oscar nomination make but hell Dame Judi Dench won an Oscar for Shakespeare In Love. And she has only 8 minutes of screen time! 8 minutes people!

Beyonce was good. Keith Robinson was fine as hell. Did you know he used to be a power ranger? And did you know they wanted Usher for CC, Effie’s brother? Ugh Usher. Jennifer was tremendous. And I loved the music.

What the holy hell are they doing nominating Little Miss Sunshine for a Best Picture Oscar? There were like 20 movies last year that were better. I saw it. I liked it. The little girl was funny. Toni Collette was under-utilized. And Alan Arkin was annoying though funny. For me Steve Carell and Paul Dano, as the silent brother, walk away with the movie. Either of them could have garnered Oscar noms and I would have understood it.

Okay now let’s talk snubs! Matt Damon was even better in The Departed than Leo. And Leo was pretty friggin awesome. And he was better in The Departed than in Blood Diamond. A movie I hated BTW. Well I didn’t hate it, I was bored by it. I mean hasn’t the story of blood diamonds been told. The movie felt dated.

I hated The Departed. I don’t know why they said the word nigger in that movie so much when there were maybe 2 African Americans in the film and they weren’t major characters. African American groups should have been up in arms about the usage of that word in that movie. It was at best gratuitous. Aside from that it was the worst movie I saw last year. No that was Talladega Nights. But The Departed was a close second. Jack needs to retire. Alex just needs to go away. I have never liked him as an actor. He does nothing for me. Someone please tell me (other than playing a sociopath in Malice) what he’s been good in?

Matt was robbed. Between The Good Shepard and The Departed he should have a nom in Best Actor and Best Supporting. Where were his people? Agents? Publicists? Mother? Mark Wahlberg? I can’t. I won’t. What the…

What about Edward Norton? He starred in 2 of my fave movies of last year: The Illusionist and The Painted Veil. I loved The Illusionist. Yes, I knew the twist 2 minutes in but I love Edward and Jessica Biel is surprisingly good. And even that dullard Paul Giamatti was okay. The Painted Veil is one of the most gorgeous movies I’ve ever seen. It’s a tad long but the pay off is the eye candy. The cinematography is gorgeous. And perennially bland Nicole Kidman-lite Naomi Watts is actually wonderful. But this is Edward’s show from start to finish. It’s 2 flawed, damaged people in a crazy relationship trying to figure it out and to grow. Great script. Great. But Edward is always good. No, Edward is always great. And sexy as hell!

How did “as hell” become an appropriate simile? Cold as hell… Um mm… Makes no sense. I mean hell is a bad place. I digress.

If you haven’t seen Babel, see it. Don’t see another movie until you see it. It’s reminiscent of Crash in some ways. The director also did that dreadful 21 Grams but don’t hold that against him. Brad Pitt is a revelation in this movie. I love Brad. He is a star. Brad could be a movie star from any era. He has that aura. That glow. He has moments in this movie that break your heart. He makes it seem effortless. I cried. And I never cry in public. Only on TV. The fact that he isn’t going to be carrying home an Best something Oscar shocks me.

Supposedly Ken Watanabe is amazing in Letters From Iwo Jima. I’m going to see it this weekend. I love him. He has a dignified beauty and a grace you seldom see in modern actors. And I love Clint Eastwood. Though I hated Mystic River. Good God I hate Sean Penn. As an actor not a person. And please keep in mind I’m not bashing anyone as a person as I don’t know these actors. I am critquing their performances. Bashing someone I’ve never met or who doesn’t know I exist would make me as crazy as the idiot internet freaks that make YouTube tributes and bash… Okay I will try to stay on point. Sean is over-rated. Anything he is in would be better with Edward Norton in it.

I’m just saying…

M*

IF YOUR LIFE WERE A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

2007-01-17T03:48:00.000-08:00

You have to do this! It's crazy how awesome this is. I just did it and it's now my newest iPod play list!

So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend your cool…

Opening Credits:
Please Remember - LeAnn Rimes
Okay this is wierd. LeAnn? But I do wanna be famous…

Waking Up:
Shoulda Known Better - Richard Marx
HA!

First Day At School:
River Of No Return - Marilyn Monroe
I'm gay! How perfect is this?

Falling In Love:
Where Are You Now - Janet Jackson
Cute. And sweet.

Fight Song:
Crucify - Tori Amos
Love my Tori and love this song! Every finger in the room is pointing @ me…

Breaking Up:
Sitting, Waiting, Wishing - Jack Johnson
I swear I'm not hand-picking these!

Prom:
Could I Have This Kiss Forever - Whitney Houston/Enrique Iglesias
Perfect.

Life:
Africa - Toto
Huh? It is my homeland.

Mental Breakdown:
Sous Le Soleil - The Major Boys
Gorgeous! It's like one of the great art movies of the 60s!

Driving:
Everything Counts - Depeche Mode
Brilliant. And true…

Flashback:
Praying For Time - George Michael
Love this song! It's such an allegory for life!

Wedding:
I Feel The Earth Move - Carol King
Wow! How right! I swear I didn't do this on purpose!

Birth of Child:
You've Got A Friend - Carol King
Perfect. And beautiful.

Final Battle:
Hate Me Now - NaS
My fave rap song. Could not be more dead on. It's how I feel about my detractors!

Death Scene:
Amsterdam - Cold Play
Chris Martin? Perfectly haunting. And I love CP.

Funeral Song:
I Want Your Love - Chic
It's what I've wanted since birth: mass love and adoration. Perfect song.

End Credit:
When I Think About Love - Naomi Campbell
Love it. Love Naomi. How fitting!

I'm just saying…

M*

SO SORRY, SO BUSY!

2007-01-15T12:04:00.000-08:00

So I'm so behind on my blog. I'm crazed. It's kinda ridic. Where to begin? Well 1st and foremost I'll be on The Maury Show, Tuesday, January, 16th. It's the viral video show. Videos that have taken the web by storm. I introduce a few clips that have been viewed millions of times on the net. I also talk about how much YouTube sucks and what it's like to be massively downloaded. Todd Newton is also on the epi. On Thursday, January, 25th I'm on How Do I Look on the Style Network. How Do I Look is my fave reoccurring gig. I love it so. I work for Style Network and E! a lot. Love them.

I'm auditioning like crazy. 2 and 3 auditions a day. Auditions even on Saturday. Crazy. I'm very close to a national commercial. I have a 3rd audition today for it. Hopefully I'll be shilling cell phones soon. Let's cross our fingers and our eyes. I just registered for an acting class. Something to do. Now you know I kinda clowned another reality star that is taking acting classes but let's not forget I was a Theatre major in college. This is something I've dreamed of and worked towards for years. Hell, decades.

Valentine Day is approaching. I have one. I have several actually. This time I'm playing it smart. Playing being the operative word. Until one of these jokers puts an emerald encrusted sapphire on my finger, I'm playing the field. Playa play on.

And the latest rumor about me and one very sexy Apprentice is just that; a rumor. I have friends everywhere. And that other rumor about me, the singer and the writer? Please. And that other rumor about me and the actor; no comment.

Ha!

What else? I don't know. I'm happy. Things are great. I'll write more later. Sooner than later. I promise! But a boy has gotta keep his hustle on. In the immortal words of Snoop: "Hos gotta eat too..."

I'm just saying.

M*

A THOUGHT.

2006-12-30T13:23:00.000-08:00

Do you know what is sick? The fact that Julia Roberts is expecting her third child is a bigger news story than Saddam Hussein being executed.

Here's Julia (whom I love @ the premiere of Charlotte's Web). J you could take the sunglasses off. It's only courteous.

I'm just saying...

M*

MY XMAS PRESENT!

2006-12-27T18:02:00.000-08:00

So an amazing make-up artist gave me the cutest Xmas present. Samuel Paul. It doesn't hurt that he's a hottie! I met him on MySpace and have become a huge fan of his work as a make-up artist. He also sketches these wonderful portraits of models. I, being the cheeky bastard I am, asked him to sketch me and he did. Here it is!

CAUGHT IN A MOMENT...

2006-12-25T18:46:00.000-08:00

Okay I am so having a moment right now. Have you ever lost something that wasn't your's to begin with? I'm sitting here on Xmas Day listening to Mariah Carey, Can't Let Go, on repeat and I'm so depressed. I've been replaced by the past. You went back to the familiar and now I sit here with nothing. A bunch of text messages and 2 voice mails. 2 voice mails down from 3 because I've saved them so long the system is slowly erasing them. And that's totally how I feel about us. Each day you slip a bit further away. But the further you go, the clearer I see you. Fuck. I know this was just a childish dalliance and it probably wouldn't have worked but it was so all I had. Hundreds of texts. The 1st thing in the morning and the last thing @ night. All those stupid late night phone calls for hours and hours. Talking about nothing. It was like being in High School again. And you are so sweet. Will I ever meet anyone as sweet as you again? This whomps. I hoped we could be friends but that last phone call was so strained and weird. So not the way we used to be with each other. And now silence. Silence that's kinda worse than strained, not knowing what to say talking. How many more times can I listen to these voice mails before they disappear too? How do you mourn what could have been? So stupid...

M*

ONLY GOOD BOYS KEEP DIARIES. BAD DOYS DON'T HAVE TIME.

2006-12-24T13:54:00.000-08:00

So you know I have a problem with YouTube. I think it's gross. And all that clip and paste bulls*^t makes me crazy. When I see those video tributes made by people who obviously need a life it makes me ill. Creating a false reality makes you insane. Not hopeful. You're seeing things that didn't exist. And you got played by players. Who continue to play you because you're um mm... Gullible. Alright that's all I'm gonna say... Well one more thing: CBS should sue that site and make them take that stuff down. If you wanna post your homemade video of you dancing around and acting stupid or your "adorable" pet/baby eating tinsel or even your sex tape, fine but lay off me & my friends. There I'm done. Kinda.

This all started with a clip I was emailed of someone I thought was kinda a friend of mine saying homophobic things about me. Of course it's on YouTube. Of course some ass grabbed it from the live feeds and posted it. Yeah, freedom of speech. Or freedom to post. Whatever. To the poster; did you put that up there because you thought it was funny? Or you agreed? Or to punish the person who said those things or who was spoken of? To the friend; I'm giving you the benefit of the doubt and forgiving you for having a moment. We all did. I hope the hate that you pointed @ me because of my sexuality isn't a true statement as to who you are. In fact it was my sexuality that allowed me to see you clearly for who you are. Gay boys don't get played by men. Unless there's ass involved. Then all bets are off.

So I met a guy, which isn't that special since I meet lots of guys. Yeah, I'm seeing someone. But we have yet to reach that point where it's exclusive. AND it would be nice if we did but that has yet to happen SO until you slip the 5 carats on my finger... And I'm looking for the 3 cees: carats, clarity and cut... Don't come round herrah with no 1 carat ring you got from Zales. Wait, wait, wait...that makes me sound like a gold-digger. And I'm not. I'm practical. And I'm romantic. I see girls all the time sporting bling. And yeah I want one. I want to start a trend of men wearing big, gaudy rocks on their wedding finger! Damn it like Heather Locklear, I'm worth it! How did this turn into me trying to justify my desire to be married? Besides I wouldn't wear a diamond. We all know that they are as common as rocks in Africa and because of smart marketing and horrid business practices by the leading diamond brokers in the world we think diamonds are special. They aren't. Rubies and sapphires are actually rarer. But I digress...

The point is a married guy hit on me. And he didn't have the balls to take off his ring either. Or maybe his balls were so big he thought he didn't have to! Player you ain't got that much game! I ain't 20 and this ain't my first time @ the rodeo. Or the mall. Though a guy you meet in mens shoes @ Barneys, Beverly Hills is much more attractive than say a guy you meet @ Pavillions in the tp aisle. Wow. I'm all over the place today. Well he (Mr Married) was cute so I listened. Hey everyone gets the chance to make their pitch. Take their proverbial shot. The lines were good. Well-rehearsed. Smooth. I took it all in; the cut of the suit was tight. Patek Phillippe. I'm feeling that. Didn't care much for that too pointy shoe but you took a chance. What you should have done was paid for the $500 Miu Miu boots I was trying on. Just a suggestion.

The thing is Mr Married, you have a wife. There is someone out there that thinks, no hopes that you belong to them. And as my momma used to say when I was a little boy, "They leave you like they find you." If you are cheating on her when you met me then I can for damn sure foresee you cheating on me. I ain't stupid. And that is bad karma for me to walk into that. Knowingly. I'm just saying...

And what is up with all these married guys, still married, creeping? Get therapy. And stand up to the commitment you made before family, friends and God! Either that or you need to come the hell out of the closet. I'm just saying. It's time. I mean Brokeback Mountain was nominated for an Oscar. Gay marriage is slowly sweeping the nation. And every star on TV now seems to know their way around a... It's time to make a decision to be happy.

Anyway I'm annoyed today. My boy is away for Xmas and hasn't called me enough. I think if you are away you should call more. But that's just me. I've been going out to much. My crew and I have been out and about a lot. But what's a boy to do? I wanna do something. I mean who wants to sit @ home every night? I'm cute. Sorta young... I need a job. That's what I need. Something to focus on other than my abs or ever-expanding then shrinking ass. The holidays are about to be over. Not a moment too soon. I can't wait til the 26th. I'm shopping like it's my job. Oh wait, it is! Love that. And pilot season is right around the corner.

Happy Holidays. I may be feeling like Scrooge but I do remember that this season is about love, rebirth, second chances, family and forgiveness. Let's all try.

I still don't have an out-phrase. I don't like "Work your show"... That's a little drag queen-y. I'm just saying... Hey! I like that. I say it all the time.

I'm just saying...

M*

MAURY, NYC, THE SKIN & THE MASTER CLEANSE! RANDOMNESS 8...

2006-12-19T12:48:00.000-08:00

So I'm just back from NYC. I did The Maury Show. Todd Newton was also on. It was fun. And of course now I wanna be the new Connie Chung. Maury is cute. My episode is about videos on YouTube. And you know how I feel about that. I mean apparently there is video of me trimming my nose hair while Janelle and Erika do their eyebrows. If you downloaded that you are sick. And if you watched? Twisted. Hey divas gotta groom. It's all about maintenance. And I couldn't kit out to have my girl Babette do it for me now could I?

I spent a bit of time in NYC. I still have many friends there. Crazy Makeba, my Kiki, Legs, Tom and E. And gosh I lived there on and off for years while playing model. I once loved the city. Not so much anymore. Once you live in Cali, it changes everything. Though NYC is cleaner than ever, it's still dirty. And there are far too many people there. And the traffic is unlike anywhere else in the world. And if I saw one more girl in skinny jean shoved into high boot I swear I was gonna throw up! Everyone was doing it! Fat girls. Skinny girls! Short girls! Black girls. Asian girls. Rich girls. Poor girls. Hell even the Latin girls were doing it and it's not sexy. Latin girls usually don't follow a trend unless it's sexy. I don't think you are gonna see Gisele or Adriana looking like Peter Pan or Captain Jack Sparrow wearing stupid roll down boots with jeans tucked into them. All that's missing is a hook and a parrot on your shoulder! Hold it. Let me amend that. On Gisele and Adriana it looks right. But anything looks right on them so...

It's almost as bad as the Ugg epidemic that inexplicably has overtaken L.A. If I see one more short, fat girl wearing Uggs and a skirt I'm gonna hurl! Those are ugly, ugly boots. Who wants to look like a Yeti? Or worse, a hobbit? I don't get that. And I get a lot.

My stay was kinda glam. Maury put me up @ The Excelsior Hotel which is the cleanest hotel I've ever stayed in. And you know I'm a clean freak! I'm the guy that brings Lysol Disinfectant Spray and 91% Rubbing Alcohol to a hotel and cleans and sprays down every surface before I unpack. And I will leave a dirty hotel in a second. I think I was scarred by an episiode of Date Line. Their hidden cameras took me a place I didn't want to go! And when they broke out the black light? This brother almost fainted! Body fluids everywhere. And it wasn't just cheap hotels either! Oh and when they did the "be careful where you buy your mattress epi!" I slept standing up for a week! They actually cut into mattresses and found that companies were just recovering old ones, found on the street, and selling them again. There was urine and blood and ticks and oh my... I digress. Anyway The Excelsior Hotel is lovely. It's on the Upper West Side.

I stayed 2 extra days @ The Hudson Hotel. It's my fave NYC hotel. I love it. It has art work by Clemente, who is my fave artist. It's a bit scene-y downstairs @ night but I like that. I always walk through with my head down and sunglasses on and people think I'm Taye Diggs or Tyson Beckford or that gay guy from Survivor. Ha! Love it! The paparazzi tried to take my picture coming out of the Four Seasons but my friend Makeba was like, "No!" "I don't want my picture taken!" "Where will it end up?" I was like, "Girl, I'm the (sorta) famous one here!" But by then some real famous person walked out and I was yesterday's news.

So here's Marcellas' NYC trip in 4 days/3 nights:
Stay @ The Hudson Hotel, 356 West 58th. Near Columbus Circle. In fact the C train stops right up the street. Definitely eat @ The Hudson Cafeteria. There's always cute boys there! I didn't make it to Cafe Habana and to Cafe Gitane in Nolita. A boy can only eat so much.

The Maury Show provided me with a car on taping day and I was sooo over the top. I went to Billy's Bakery, 184 9th Ave, and got cupcakes and a piece of German chocolate cake. The train was around the corner and I hadn't taken it yet. I had the driver drop me off @ the subway and then pick me up @ Columbus Circle to take me to the hotel. Chic! Crazy! Spoiled. Fantastic. Hey I tipped him well! The cupcakes were okay, the cake wasn't. Magnolia Bakery, 401 Bleecker St., is still the gold standard. It's better than Billy's.

Dinner @ Crema Restaurante, 111 W. 17th @ 6th. It's high concept Mexican food. Gorgeous room and good food. The service isn't good but that could just be who we got that evening. While having dinner with Tom, his beau and my new friend, Danielle, someone whipped out their camera phone and took my photo without asking. I started to pull a Naomi and snatch that damn phone from his hands and throttle him with it. Did you see when Naomi went berserk on that passenger who took her pic on a plane to South Africa? I'm sure you can find that on YouTube. And that is what is wrong with YouTube. 5 years later and you can still find a bad moment that Naomi had. Or me grooming. Or dancing in the shower.

Cocktails @ the Ritz and the Four Seasons. I'm very that way. I like low-key places to start or end a night out. Ease your way in... And the Ritz has this nut platter that is crazy good. Yum.

Sushi and champagne @ Geisha, Madison & Park, 33 E. 61st st. I wonder if this has anything to do with Mike's restaurant in L.A.? It was good. Sushi and Veuve baby. Yum.

I'll spare you the gay bars. They are all the same. Plus I'm seeing someone so...

My boy calls me his "Cocoa Bear." That's so cute. I am cocoa. The color anyway. My skin is magnificent lately. Like a Godiva milk chocolate truffle. Wait a second... Bear? Bear. Does that mean I'm fat? Or hairy? Bwah!! My boyfriend thinks I'm fat! It's like that scene when Kate Hudson starts crying in How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days. Gosh I guess it's time for the Master Cleanse again. This is day 2. I've already lost 2 lbs. The last time I did it I lost 14 lbs in 7 days. I had to stop early (I was going 10 days) because I literally dropped 4 lbs in a day. It was a bit scary but I got to pull out the Prada so it was worth it. As Oprah says, "Nothing tastes as good as thin!" But after losing 18 lbs this summer during All-Stars on slop I have to disagree with O. A fucking In-And-Out Double Triple, animal-style, tastes pretty damn near heaven. And yeah that's double meat, triple cheese baby.

And that's a wrap. Wait I can't quote Mike... Hm mm... Always business doing pleasure with you. No, that's Dylan. Hm mm... Reynolds out! No. I'm too tall for that one... Wow. I gotta come up with an out line! Stay chic. No... Too girly... Tell one of those bitches... No that was funny but sounds like a t-shirt.

Ooh I got it: Work your show. I like it.

M*

THIS IS MY LIFE AS A COVERGIRL!

2006-12-10T23:15:00.000-08:00

So yeah I watch too much ANTM. No, I don't think I'm Danielle, though sometimes I act like I'm Eva the Diva and often, Elyse. Thank goodness Caridee won.

Lately I've been busy. Crazed. I've been auditioning like mad. And taking tons of meetings. It's all about the pitch. I'm still in the running to be the on-air stylist on a major talk show. I'm up for a part in an independent film. I killed in the audition. A personal triumph for me. It's one of those moments that as an actor you don't care if you get the part. All you care about is the fact that in that moment you were good. I owned that room. I've also been offered a TV pilot where I'd play a Judy Garland-loving drag queen. Yeah... I know... Ha, ha. Historically drag queens have frightened me. Like clowns. Or harlequin masks. Or puppets. Ooh I hate a puppet! Or the cat clock whose eyes go back and forth. And don't get me started on Halloween. I can barely leave the house. Ugh. It's something about false faces I think. But I digress... I just booked another TV appearance. I'm the gay prince of the talk show circuit. More please. Thanks.

Last weekend I was in San Diego doing an appearance for one of my fave charities, Equality California. It was awesome. They are an important charity on the front lines of the California gay rights movement. I'm proud to be a supporter not just with my tenuous celebrity but with my checkbook. I missed Big In 2006 (which every year looks like a traffic accident anyway). It would have been nice to see my girls. Ah well... So many invites and so little time.

Last weekend was also my best friend Kata's baby shower. I've never been to a baby shower before. My other best friend King threw it for my Kata. It was glorious. We played baby games, had tea and scones and cute little sandwiches with the crusts cutoff. It was chic. I got Kata the baby mattress she wanted and what I always get expectant mothers; a stack of children's books.

Kata, M and H got:
The Very Hungry Caterpillar
The Snowy Day (my fave)
Miss Spider's Tea Party
Harold and The Purple Crayon
Where The Wild Things Are

I love buying children's books. They are lovely and so sweet.

Kata and I have been friends since 1995. We modeled together and traveled everywhere. For years we were inseparable. She saved my life when I had to get the hell out of Milan fast. We lived 4 people to a one bedroom apartment in Miami. So many great memories. I spend most of the Holidays with Kata and her husband. We shared a glorious Thanksgiving this year. King, our other best friend, was my date. Just the 4 of us, me, King, Kata and her husband and a sweet little baby in Kata's belly. Hurry up baby! But not too soon. We're anxious to love you.

I used to think fame was the end all be all. That you had to be on TV. You had to be a star. Now I know that stuff is all crap. It only leaves you wanting more. More fame. More money. And @ what cost? I'd rather talk to my boy 10 times a day and hang out with my girls, playing Uno.

M*

ANOTHER SONG...

2006-12-06T20:16:00.000-08:00

It's been brought to my attention that I write the same blog over and over. About a special boy. A horrid bratty thing who has bewitched me. I do believe I'm getting what I deserve for being horrid and bratty to so many guys for so long.

So another song for my boy:

Sunrise - Simply Red

As I look into your eyes I see the sunrise
The light behind your face helps me realise

Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine

I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Is it in your mind at all
It should be me, it could be me
Forever

Wandering through life will love come home to you
And the love you want forever, will they be true to you

Will we sleep and sometimes love until the moon shines
Maybe the next time I'll be yours and maybe you'll be mine

I don't know if it's even in your mind at all
It could be me
At this moment in time
Loves indescribable
It should be me, it could be me
Forever

Easy, ready, willing, over time
Where does it stop where do you dare me to draw the line
You've got the body now you want my soul
Dont even think about it say no go

So now you are free butthead. What you gonna do?

M*

Currently listening :
Sunrise
By Simply Red
Release date: By 17 June, 2003

FRIENDS.

2006-12-04T13:11:00.000-08:00

So it was suggested this summer that I am not a good friend. That was truly one of the most hurtful things, in a long list of things, that has ever been said about me. Let me clarify; it was said that I turn on my friends. Well 1st, I was playing a game this summer. A game where friendship and loyalty are famously tested. A game where strangers meet and compete. A game where 4 years ago I lost sight of the fact that I was competing for money and chose friendship over cash. And was famously punished for that transgression. Believe me I went into All-Stars with one loyalty this time: me. I wasn't looking for friends, I was searching for cash and prizes.

Am I really friends with anyone from Big Brother? In all honesty I'd have to say no. Not while on the show anyway. Yes, I like some of those knuckleheads. I count Kiki, Diane and Erika as my pals. James and Sarah I love. Janelle too. Big Willie Wikle is my bud. I think fondly of Roddy though we'll never be friends. A few people I hate and never wanna lay eyes on again. Which is cool. You aren't going to be friends with everyone you meet.

I am best friends with Lisa from BB3. She's the newest member of that short list. We went through an amazing, horrible, fun, scary experience together. It was a weird way to meet. To get to know each other. It wasn't until after the cameras stopped rolling and the true time it takes for a friendship to occur happened, that we became friends and then best friends. Lisa and I have been through so much together. I love her like a sister and trust her like family. We've laughed together, cried together, gotten too drunk and too stupid together. We've seen each other through highs and lows. We've fought, even stopped speaking to each other. Only to realize there's no one we'd rather talk to.

I'm saddened to this day the producers talked to Amy about me during All-Stars. To let Amy tell it they twisted her words. Do we need further proof that they wanted to re-create the "Amy & Marcellas BB3" story-line? Janelle is no Amy. Amy is no Janelle. And the Marcellas that knows and loves those 2 fierce creatures isn't the one that hung out in Studio City this summer. That's the thing; when you are thrown together in the BB house it creates these immense emotional attachments that aren't based in reality. You laugh harder, hate more, love intenser and that is not the basis for a real friendship. It's @ most a start.

That's what I have with my BB family. The start of friendships.

It's interesting the "How & the Why" of BB friendships. How did Roddy and Josh become such good friends? Or Will and Mike? What do Danielle and Jason have in common? What do Lisa and I talk about? Diane and Will W? What's that about? All I know is this, I'm not a bad friend. I'd throw myself in front of a bullet for my girls. I have a core group of friends I've been best with for over 10 years now. These are the women the producers should have talked to during BB All-Stars. Not people I competed against for money. People who I @ best barely knew. Did you want the truth Arnold and Alison? Or did you just want to destroy what you helped create?

Wow. This post was supposed to be be about how I spent Thanksgiving and a bit about last weekend. I majorly digressed! Anyway congrats to someone I do love. Who I've laughed with and cut-up with and I hope to grow to be true friends with.

Janelle you are the All-Star. Work your show.

M*

CHIC FLIGHTS...OR HOW TO GET OFF LOOKING GREAT.

2006-12-03T23:21:00.000-08:00

1. DRESS FOR SUCCESS
Often there are cuties on board or a pretty flight attendant (also, the paparazzi stakes out the L.A. to New York route). You gotta look good getting on and off the plane! Wear fabrics w/a bit of stretch that won't wrinkle. Try Earnest Sewn Jeans (my fave) or dark Diesel's in the fanker cut. Add on a simple top or polo. A Cashmere sweater thrown over the shoulder completes the look. For shoes try the classic Tod's driving shoe, old-school tennies or even flip flops (w/socks "Marcellas-Style")! The sweater is crucial as it becomes a chic way to stay warm in-flight.

2. HYDRATE
Any dermatologist (mine is Dr. Lawrence Rivkin in Beverly Hills) will tell you, water is crucial to good skin. I drink @ least 8 oz. for each hour I'm on-board. Once you could bring your own bottle(s). Now you have to beg! And NO, Coke and coffee don't count! Alcohol? Bad idea. It dehydrates.

3. SKIN CARE
Amber Valetta, Supermodel/Actress, recommends the following: Dab on eye cream. Mine is Neem Eye Cream by Sundari. Add moisturizer. I use oil-free Kapha Moisturizer by Sundari or Dr. Patricia Wexler's Acnostat Lotion w/salicylic acid if I'm experiencing a breakout. My addition to this would be lip balm. My favorite is Rosebud Strawberry and I love Perfumeria Gal Madrid Fragranced Lip Balm in Pear!

4. NAP (IF YOU CAN)
If you don't want to be bothered on-route, it's great to catch a few winks. Bring along an eye mask to block out light. Banana Republic makes an awesome cashmere and silk one! I don it if my seat mate becomes tedious!

5. DISEMBARKATION (HOW TO GET OFF)
Before you get off, spritz your face w/Evian "Le Brumisateur" Mineral Water Spray. It moisturizes, tones and refreshes. Apply a little moisturizer, add a bit of lip balm or lipstick. A couple of drops of Visine won't hurt and you are ready to go!

M*

THIS IS SILLY...

2006-11-30T12:46:00.001-08:00

THIS IS SILLY!

I'm saying it now. It's silly. Heidi Klum has a Xmas song out and I love it. I can't decide if I love it because it's Heidi (whom I love) or if it's good. It's called Wonderland and it's silly and repetitive and the video sucks in that "home video-made for German TV" sort of way. And that's what's great about the song. It's like Heidi was a guest on some bad talk show in Iceland and Gunnar, the host was like, "Now Heidi sing!" And she did.

Check it out if you haven't. I'm a sucker for a model singing. I think I'm the only one in the world who purchased Baby Woman by Naomi Campbell. You couldn't get it in the States! When I was modeling in London, I marched into the Tower Records in Piccadilly Circus and asked for it. The salespeople said, "Oh, it's pretty dreadful." I said, "That's not the point and I didn't ask for your opinion." "Where is it." I was so happy when I got it. I was skipping! Skipping! It's one of my most treasured possessions.

I'm GAY! So GAY. Couldn't be gayer. I'd give up my Rolex and my Jil Sander wingtips before I give up my copy of Baby Woman. Damn, I love those shoes.

So I'm seeing someone. Kinda. He's a jerk. Which oddly I like. No, he's kinda like a cute, spoiled, petulant, little boy who you wanna spank. Or kiss. Or kiss and spank. Let's not go there. Wait...I just described myself. Hm mm... As Mary would say, I think I just had a breakthrough. Anyway, I pick a song for him everyday.

Today's song is Everyday Is A Holiday (With You) - Esthero from the Down With Love Soundtrack.

Met him on Sunday
Loved him by Tuesday afternoon
Woke up on Friday
Changed my whole life to make some room
Around a quarter to two

I have remembered all of my lines
I say whenever I think of you
You're like a favorite song to that melody,
That melody I love
And it goes

La da da da da da da da da da
La da da da da
La da da da da
La da da da

Hopped on the Metro
And I'm on my way home
But I can't get him out of my mind
No matter just how hard I try

And if the rumors are true
I could look forward to some
Better days and get aways
So nice 'cause when I am with you
You're the crescendo to that melody,
That melody I love

La da da da da da da da da da

We'll have better days and get aways
'Cause every day is a holiday with you
La da da da da..

Better days and get aways
'Cause every day is a holiday with you

Gotta let them know
Gotta know for sure
Don't leave me out in the cold
Gotta know for sure

La la la la..

When I think of you
Better days and get aways
'Cause every day is a holiday with you

La da da da da da da da da da

Better days and get aways
'Cause every day is a holiday with you

La da da da da..

I'm a 13 year old girl. The rumors are true. I'm kinda cuckoo cuckoo about this guy. But I gotta keep him a secret though I'm bursting @ the seams to tell who he is! He's so hot! Yippee!

M*

MICHAEL RICHARDS/THE DEPARTED

2006-11-28T06:38:00.000-08:00

So Mikey got caught with his hand in the cookie jar big time. Huge. And mama put a mouse trap in there in the form of a video camera. Here's the thing, all of us no matter what race we are, harbor some racist thought about some other race. Period. Let's hope we mask it better than Mr. Richards. Poor thing. He was done before but now he's super-done.

What he should have done is not said a word for 2 weeks and then gone on Oprah. O would have started out with, "What were you thinking?" Then moved into, "No you did not?", with head shake and Black girl finger wave. Next she would have led the audience in a gentle scolding. This is where Michael breaks into tears. And after that, admonishment. "We know you are sorry Michael." "Don't let it happen again." Followed by a hug. But not too close. That sweater is cashmere. And probably by Ralph Lauren. Followed by a round of applause. Then O could have spun the show into a meaningful dialogue about race in America and the world.

I should be a producer.

And that's how far Mr. Richards is gone! His people have him talking to Rev. Jesse Jackson and Rev. Al Sharpton! Even Black people don't listen to them! Mike, who's repping you buddy!? You want the ear of Black America... It's got 5 carats dangling from it on the cover of O each month!

I do applaud Rev. Jackson for his call to end the gratuitous tossing of the N Word around. Enough already. We get it. Did you see The Departed? I've never heard that word tossed around so needlessly in my life! It was grotesque. And I was disgusted. And as it's a contemporary movie there was no need for it! Censor yourself Mr. Scorcese. Tossing that around isn't going to make your audience focus in any more. Or get an actor an award because of how well he says it!

I hear it's tossed around pretty liberally in Bobby also. I won't be seeing that. I wanted to. I mean Lindsay Lohan and Sharon Stone and Demi Moore. That's a gay man's paradise! But I don't need that moment when I'm slammed into reality. That moment where ever so subtlety I feel bad for being Black. And I look around to see if anyone else heard it. And the faces around me are eerily still. A bit too focused on the screen. That's what it's like when the N Word is tossed. It's like a little slap. Just enough to let you know, they see you.

Well you know what? I've come full circle. I was wrong. @ least one Black man is listening to you, Revs. Jackson and Sharpton. And I stand with you. I too say enough. We know it's wrong. Even when you are Black and you say it to or about your race. It's wrong and enough. Don't use it. And maybe one day enough time will pass when children won't even know it or what it means.

Now let's talk about the F Word...

M*

PEOPLE ARE STRANGE...AND SCARY.

2006-11-27T14:10:00.000-08:00

Reality fame sucks. Basically. Kinda. Well, not really but it does have it's problems. You aren't really famous. It's like being popular...In high school. I was popular in HS. And just as in HS you don't belong to yourself. You do what it takes to get to the popular table. You do and say all the things that will keep you in the loop. I remember freshman year coming into the game and not knowing anyone or anything really. Either you step up to the plate or you are relegated to band practice and riding the bus home. I was aiming for homecoming king and playing spin the bottle with guys @ tennis camp. Well it didn't take long to acquire the look of the popular. In my HS it was preppy. Levi's, iZod, Polo and Coach reigned supreme. You needed to be gregarious, smart, well-dressed and kinda a bitch. See, these are the same things reality stars need. Gregarious gets you on the show. Smart keeps you in the game. Well-dressed goes hand in hand with sexy. And you know sexy gets you everywhere. And a bitch? Well we all need our armor.

Lately I've been re-evaluating what being popular and being a reality star means. Before All-Stars I was offered a TV show. For most people that is the holy grail. Being the host of your own show. Well I've done that. It wasn't all I thought it would be. When I told the producer that I wasn't taking the show and I was doing All-Stars she said, "Why would you do that?" "I thought you wanted to kill the reality thing." I still struggle with my decision to do All-Stars to this day. I thought I had a chance @ winning this time. Things don't work out the way you think. Or hope. Or pray. I'll never understand why Arnold and Alison pursued me so vigorously only to... Enough of that.

I just got creeped out. I've had the crazy experiences on this journey. Marriage requests from women who think they could change me from gay if I met them and (horrors) slept with them. Sorry ladies but ain't no girl that good to make me jump back over to that side. I've slept with girls. Hell, I was engaged. I know what I'm missing. Girls are pretty. They are nice to talk to and look @ but that other stuff... Not for me. And if you are going to send me naked pics please shave. One woman in particular looked like a Yeti. I've gotten fan mail from guys in prison. I like that. It's sweet. Very Oz. Not the gang rape part of Oz but the "hot guy orange jumpsuit doing time holding it down thinking about me" part of that prison fantasy. Until they show up @ your front door. I've been recognized renting porn. I've been mistaken for that guy from Survivor and even signed his name on an autograph.

The creepiest thing ever is when fans try to get to me to get to someone else. It happened to me today. Here's the emails:

From: Nicole
Date: Nov 26 2006 9:10 PM
Subject: Will Kirby = Love
Body: Marcellas,
Surely you believe in Love at first sight! Well I'm in Love with Will! If you have a romantic bone in your body, you will reach out and help me.I don't have the answers but your help would be much appreciated. Thank you ahead of time......much love........Nicole

From: Marcellas
Date: Nov 26 2006 9:35 PM
Subject: Really?
Body: Will is in love with Erin. I have a feeling they'll be engaged soon.

Sorry.

M*

From: Nicole
Date: Nov 27 2006 1:46 PM
Subject: RE: Really?
Body: First of all thanks for the reply! Well Will has been "In Love" before. I just don't think it will last. I really don't know Erin but I'll bet you she pressures him into getting engaged. Honestly, she had no trouble taking him back right away after BB. If it was me I would have been pissed off alot longer. He didn't "have to" do half the things he did with other women for the "sake" of the game. The live feeds don't lie!

I know this sounds corny but I've made a cd I've been wanting to mail to him I asked Sandy and she suggested his work address. I thought about that but wondered if that was in bad taste. I would rather it not get mixed in with a bunch of mail that will never get opened. Do you know a address or a way I could get it to him?Or do you think the work thing is ok?

Thanks ahead of time for your response.

Nicole

From: Marcellas
Date: Nov 27 2006 1:54 PM
Subject: Yikes.
Body: Don't email me again. Erin and Will are both friends of mine. If you want to send him something send it to CBS.

M

There is all kinds of crazy going on there! I'm sorry but I just got very scared for Will. Shall we examine the emails for signs of crazy? First if you wanna reach Will, reach him! You found me! But I'm sure you did that and he's blocked you or sworn out a restraining order. Oh and love @ sight usually means the 2 people involved have seen each other. You saw Will. He has no idea you exist. Unless you've gone too far and showed up @ his job! Don't get me started on the live feeds. This email is reason why they are obsolete. And dangerous. I think it allows people to get too close. To become too attached. I don't care if you watched us for 20 out of 24 hours a day. You don't know us. And the "Will has been in love before" thing? Have some self-esteem. Why be another in a long line? And if he did stuff this summer he didn't have to, why do you "love" him? Why would you want a man who could do that? As my Lisa would say, "They leave you like they found you." As Maya Angelou would say, "When someone shows you their true face, believe it." But you know nothing real about Will as you have never met him! And he was a character monking for the cameras on a TV show!

Will get extra security. Hell, hire a security guard. Maybe Erin should! Change your phone #. I remember the first time I had to change my phone # after BB 3. Yes, I said first time. I've changed it 3 times. What makes anyone think they can call someone they don't know!? Who never gave them their #! This woman doesn't know Will. Or Erin. Or Janelle. Or me. What is that?! This thing, reality stardom, changes everything. Don't worry Will, I'm not helping her get to you. The first rule of Fight Club is... Well the first rule of Reality Club is don't unleash crazy on each other!

I'm dating now. It's fun. One thing about being on TV is it definitely ups the hot quotient of the peeps that push up on you. It's all porn stars and strippers. Music execs and rappers on the DL. And boys with bling. Alas as J-Lo once said, My Love Don't Cost A Thing. But as Marcellas always says, "My time does." Every time I meet someone now, I think are they interested in me or the guy that wore the robe on that show? How do you meet anyone now? Is it an automatic red flag if I was "seen" on TV by someone who wants to see me?

So here's a few observations from viewed to viewer:
If you made a tribute video to Will and Janelle's love on BB AS you have a problem.

If you spent $1,000 on a hat that someone wore on AS you have a problem. Donate that money to charity! Or buy my Yes, Dear/Big Brother episode duffel bag.

If you are part of a forum that hates someone you never met other than say...Osama Bin Laden, you have a problem. Put down the Twinkies. Sweep away the empty pizza boxes. Stop creating bots to make sure Janelle wins whatever she's nominated for. Step away from the computer and get help. Janatics Anonymous. The next meeting is right after Will Addicts Unite, just before Irrational Response Help Group II, at the local Civic Center.

And if this post causes you any anguish and you have to go around and re-post it while bashing the messenger? If it does that then, as my girl Danielle would say, "You need Jesus."

Rant done.

M*

iPod PLAYLIST

2006-11-24T01:56:00.000-08:00

So I'm seeing someone. We're trying to figure out what that means. I care about him. A lot. I think he feels the same way. I get happy to hear his voice or get his texts.

He's got his own playlist on my iPod:

1) My Lovin' Goes Christina Milian
This feelin' so new, Been searchin' for you, I wonder how you lived life without me, Cuz somethin' tells me, You're all that I need, I wanna give you my everything, I'll let you think about this in the meantime, I'll make your life better in between time, I'm knowing that we're meant to be together boy, Just tell me baby I will do whatever

2) Lost Without U Robin Thicke

3) Sexy Love Ne-Yo

4) Hey Fella LeToya

5) My Love Justin Timberlake
I can see us holding hands Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand I can see us on the countryside Sitting on the grass, laying side by side You could be my baby, let me make you my man Boy, you amaze me Ain't gotta do nothing crazy See, all I want you to do is be my love

6) I Wanna Be Down Brandy
I would like to get to know if I could be The kind of guy you that you could be down for Cuz when I look at you I feel something tell me That you're the kind of guy that I should make a move on And if I don't let you know Then I won't be for real I could be wrong but I feel like something could be going on The more I see you the more that it becomes so true There ain't no other for me it's only you

7) I Bruise Easily Natasha Bedingfield

8) Follow Me Home Sugababes

9) Me And U Cassie
I was waiting for you to tell me you were ready I know what to do, if only you would let me As long as you're cool with it, I'll treat you right Here is where you wanna be

10) Stop 4 Love Basement Jaxx

11) Sittin' Up In My Room Brandy

12) Crush Jennifer Paige

13) He Is Brandy

14) 2 Hearts Sugababes
Everything between us makes me glow But how could you know? Simple things bring simple pleasures that we know Or maybe they didn't show You're the must have, you're the bomb I'm in your palm Love freely, so really, there's a calm Where's it from?

15) Waiting For A Girl... (Lifestylerz Rmx) Foreigner

16) To Know Your Name Lindsay Lohan

17) Someone To Love Jon B.

18) They Don't Know Jon B.
Don't listen to what people say They don't know about 'bout you and me Put it out your mind cause it's jealousy They don't know about this here

19) Forever Westlife

20) Could It Be I'm Falling In Love The Spinners

21) Angel Of Mine Monica

22) The Time Is Now Moloko

23) My Funny Valentine Matt Damon

24) Be Without You Mary J. Blige

25) Embraceable You Duncan Sheik

26) Weather Storm Craig Armstrong

27) We Could Be Keyshia Cole
When you hear me talking what you think? When you looking into my eyes what you see? I know you ain't tryn' to be my man, but what you think about us being friends, Making plans to be eveything we wanna be, Making our dreams turn reality, I'm diggin' everything you appear to be And I'm wondering if we could be real good, good friends?

28) Let's Take A Ride Justin Timberlake

29) Tell Me How You Feel Joy Enriquez
you're on my mind had another sleepless nite and all I think about is that I want you here and now all I wanna say is that I want you in my life I need you to hold me make me feel so rite there's no other love oh yea you're everything that I'm looking for and more

30) You're Beautiful (Almighty Rad Remix) James Blunt

31) Precious Box George Michael

32) Into You Fabolous
I can't really explain it I'm so into you now I wanna be more than a friend to you now When they ask, I mention my babyboy in the interviews now And I don't bring the problems from the 90s in the 2 thou There's no reason to have a friend or two now Cuz the kid's ready to tell you how he feel in a few vows Maybe I speak in general now But boy, ima do whatever just to keep a grin on you now

33) Speed Of Sound (C-64 Radio Edit) Coldplay

34) Warning Sign Coldplay

35) Make Me Whole Amel Larrieux
And your eyes are the windows to heaven Your smile could heal a million souls Your love completes my existence You're the other half that makes me whole You're the only other half that makes me whole

M*

COMPLETELY RANDOM PICS!

2006-11-22T00:20:00.000-08:00

Pics from my 1st bday week spent in Chicago courtesy James!

Melly Mel in the hizzy!

Thanks James, Sarah and Tom! It was bliss...

Here's and old pic of me and Lisa from BB3.

I love it! We look so happy. She's still my closest friend from BB. Nothing has changed. I wish she'd been in the All-Star house. Someone I could trust and who couldn't be fooled.

This is Lisa & I at the 2002 Los Angeles AIDS Walk.

Lisa has a sweet, mischievious look on her face and I just look happy!

I happen to love this:

I sold "The Robe". It's done.

This is from the set of my BET show "Remixed"!

We were clowning behind the scenes. Doc, me and "Big Sexy!"

These are some of my favorite pics. They are some of my favorite people. These were some of my favorite times.

M*

BIRTHDAY PARTY/GAME NITE 2.0!

2006-11-19T13:05:00.000-08:00

So I've been celebrating my birthday for 2 weeks. Last week while in Chicago and this weekend in L.A. Last night my roommate Eric and I hosted our second game nite! GAME NITE 2.0 actually. It was a blast! It was one of those rare occasions when you look around and realize how blessed you are. I have a great life and some wonderful friends. After visiting Chicago and seeing my family and hanging with a few dear old friends and a few new ones (James, Sarah and Tom), I realized something. My summer didn't really suck. Yeah, bad things happen. No let's re-language that: things don't turn out as you wish sometimes but they can't derail you and should not block you from what's good. And real. I had a few laughs and made real connections with some wonderful people. I'm better for it. Stronger. Hopefully smarter. Different.

And that my friends is the real reality show.

M*

THIS IS FUNNY AS HELL!

2006-11-19T02:42:00.000-08:00

Apparently I look like Naomi...And Portia DeRossi.

THE SALE!!!!! eBay ALERT!!!

2006-11-11T20:15:00.000-08:00

First let me say, "Happy birthday to me." (That's a shout-out to a speech made by Krista during BB2!) It is in fact my bday! Yea! I'm partying like a rockstar. And I'll be paying for it next week in sweat @ the gym! I'm about to meet James out for drinks. Yes, I am in Chicago. I had lunch with James and the ever beautiful Sarah yesterday. They are very much together and very much in love. Which makes me kinda sick because I love James too. But the boy with a lot can't have everything. So there.

I'm in. Yes, I too am selling everything I own or ever touched on eBay. I had to hold back from selling my clippers which shaved the Iraqi Peach's head and my afro wig!

Here's the list:
Hey guys I'm selling bunches of stuff on eBay!
The Kaysar Voodoo Doll from the God of Otev POV comp.
Black Big Brother All-Stars Thermal.
Baseball Cap from Big Brother 3.
Big Brother All-Stars Baseball Cap.
My White Bathrobe!
Big Brother Season 3 Duffle Bag.
Big Brother All-Stars Duffle Bag!
Big Brother/Yes, Dear Episode Duffle Bag!

It's time. And when Janelle has made over 2 grand and Diane made over a thousand on a single item I need to get into the fray!

So please go bid. Bid long. Bid hard. Bid often!

M*

BYE KEVIE...WE HARDLY KNEW YE!

2006-11-08T00:06:00.000-08:00

So it's done. Britney has kicked K-Fed to the curb. A lot of peeps were annoyed by him. You know with the whole "I act Black" thing. But I saw the attraction. Hell who doesn't love a wigger? Is that term politically incorrect? I would never drop the "N Word". Actually I would. To someone else Black. But I digress. Back to K-Fed... He's hot in a "dancer but straight-I've appropriated street boy" style. I mean I adore Eminem. And K-Fed is basically Em-lite. Some of the flava but with less calories and cash. Kinda the same if you squint. Or keep the lights out.

I'd do K-Fed. After a good scrubbing with some very hot, very soapy water. And a dousing of 91% Isopropyl Alcohol. With a condom. I'm a safety boy.

One thing is for certain; K-Fed is about to get paid. California is a right to work state. Wait that's for unemployment... Oh he gets half of what Brit made during the marriage. But I'm sure they had some crazy pre-nup! Written on the back of a Bob's Big Boy menu. Or a cocktail napkin from Pure or Rain or or Ghost or some other nightclub in Vegas. There has to be a pre-nup! Tell me there's a pre-nup. Whatever it is it's just a stud fee. That's what he was, a thoroughbred. A stallion.

Now he'll go the way all dancer/actor/model/husband of's go... Like J.Lo's second or third hubby. He was a dancer too... Kinda hot. Latin-y. Chris? Cris something. See? He's already a memory.

Speaking of kinda trashy women, I have an idea to pitch. This is Hollywood. I wanna do the Anna Nicole Story. It's a 4 part mini-series extravaganza starring... You guessed it. Britney. Who else could play Anna? These girls have more in common than you'd think. Anna can write and produce it. Can't you see it? It's Brit's comeback vehicle. She can do the soundtrack for the scene where a young Anna swings around a pole and then gives a very old, very rich man, a very good lap dance. An $80 million lap dance.

And @ the 2007 Emmy Awards a tearful Britney accepts the Emmy for Best Actress in a TV Movie or Mini-Series. As she thanks Anna, Anna from the audience blows her a double handed kiss and says, "Britney thank you for telling my story." Either that or flips her the bird because she's jealous she didn't just play her life story herself. I mean Anna's a good actress. Did you see her in To The Limit starring John's brother, Joey Travolta?

Alright I need help. Back away from the computer and get a life Marcellas.

M*

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!! Or not...

2006-11-07T11:34:00.000-08:00

So everyone is celeb obsessed. Right? I mean look @ the explosion of tabloid mags; Us Weekly, Star, People, Entertainment Weekly, In Touch, Life & Style, InStyle. And that's just a few. All dedicated to CELEBRITY. The new Holy Grail. And the covers; "Ryan Cheated!", "Nicole Wasting Away", "Thin and Bones!" Okay I subscribe to Entertainment Weekly but they always quote me. And Star but they use me as a pundit! And the web-sites! Yeah I love Pop Candy, Daily Candy and A Socialite's Life. Towleroad and Go Fug Yourself I visit on the hour. Hell I even popped up on Defamer for kissing in public.

In the wake of Neil Patrick's outing I must say enough is enough. That's strange since I took part in a show that is the ultimate voyeuristic thrill. A show that incites so much web-based celebrity/infamy. It seems to some the cast of Big Brother is like Tom, Halle, Lindsay, Nicole and Paris.

Ooh do I get to pick who I am? I'll be Lindsay...No, Nicole! Yeah! I like that...That's hot. And Will is Tom. That makes Janelle, Katie. And Mike Boogie? Definitely Paris.

No one deserves to be outed. It just drives people further into the closet (see all the gay republican senators and reverends) and sends a message that being gay is something you need to hide in the 1st place! Question: who didn't know Doogie was gay? The thing is no one cared until How I Met Your Mother became a hit! I've known Neil since 2002. Very nice guy and a Big Brother fanatic! With his role on How I Met he's proving that an actor is an actor. It doesn't matter what his sexuality is. If you can act, you can play any part. Neil should be nominated for an Emmy.

And those that "outed" Neil? Mind your own damn business! He's not a politician, on the DL, legislating hate or an Evangelical minister getting high and tweaking on the weekends, all the while spending his kids lunch money and preaching anything but love and understanding. He's an actor, simply trying to entertain.

Kinda like a reality star... I'm just saying.

Back on point, I love Ryan and Reese. I hope he didn't cheat and if he did I hope she can forgive. I want Madonna to adopt mo' Black babies. And I want them to grow up with British accents. And riding horses and playing football (which is really soccer). I want Brad and Angie to get married. And Angie, lose the tats. I know a Dr who can do that for you cheap. Keith...Clean it up. No one likes a drunk. We know the Aussie like a pint but c'mon! You are married to a Goddess. And Nicole? Jesus H Krikey! Make better choices. Tom turned out to be a whack job. But he did make you famous. Good job!

Here's my new fave site. Leave Colin Alone. I'm trying to convince them to do a "Leave Marcy Alone" tee... Unless of course you are a hot male between the ages of 24 and 42, 5'7" to 6'3", 150 to 210 lbs, any ethnicity, d/d free, gainfully employed, have all your teeth and...

But 5'7" and 210 lbs? Sorry. That doesn't work. Unless you are a body builder. Then, that's hot.

M*

REALITY REMIX REALLY AWARDS!

2006-10-26T01:16:00.000-07:00

Tuesday evening was the taping of The Reality Remix Really Awards. I was asked to present with my dearest Erika. She was nominated for "Favorite Reality Hottie" and I was nominated for "Best Fight". We both lost but we looked gorgeous while doing so. Erika was one of the few girls who wore a gown. She broke out full length animal print and looked amazing. I decided to go formal and wore a black J. Lindeberg suit. I contemplated wearing a bow tie but upon arrival saw that most men were (unfortunately) very casual. I wore the white shirt a bit open with the bow tie untied in an homage to super hot Daniel Craig the new James Bond. It was kinda good.

The awards were fun. They went on a bit too long and certain members of the cast of Big Brother got a bit too loud and way too drunk. It is what it is. Flavor Flav and those skanks were... Skanky. Though I have to admit I was charmed by Pumkin. Rob and Amber were beautiful. I was Amber's mom's fave House Guest! So cute! Oh and I got to see my girl Omarosa, who is one of my closest friends. Mamarosa was there too which is always a pleasure.

All in all it was a brilliant night!

The show airs on October 28th. Next week Anna David, Kennedy and I will be doing a fashion wrap-up of the awards on Reality Remix. The winners, losers, who was obnoxious, who was well-dressed, who looked like hell and a re-cap of everything that Really took place.

A fan told me his fave line of BB All-Stars. "Can we intercom downstairs and have one of those bitches bring me a 7UP?" I said it to Janelle one night in the HoH. The only thing missing @ the awards was my Janie!

MI VIDA LOCA, MY SO CALLED LIFE, CHAOTIC.

2006-10-24T10:53:00.000-07:00

Okay so I just referenced Ricky Martin, Claire Danes and Britney Spears in the same breath. Or title I suppose. Life post Big Brother has been crazy. It's been fun. Stressful. Busy. Strangely glam. And a bit surreal.

Events. Invitations keep rolling in. Fashion week was a blast. I was front row @ every show. Crazy. The best; Samaire Armstrong @ Kelli Nishimoto and Jody Watley singing @ Kevan Hall. Crazy. And why did I end up @ Hooter's after the shows? Yep...On Hollywood Blvd. As Mike Boogie said, "Slumming like a beast." Hooter's was fun. The girls were sweet and I met a bunch of fans. Brenda and Rose had me sign a Hooter's Tee. I told them to put it on eBay because no one would ever believe I'd be there! But I love Hooter's. And Chilli's. And don't get me started on a Red Lobster. This brother does not miss a lobster fest!

I'm presenting an award @ Fox Reality Remix Awards with my dearest Erika. I avoided being nominated Best Villain. Though that could have been kinda chic. Anyway I rather like having been the surly, aggressive, Black Gay guy. That's a mouthful. But I was not a villain. No matter how hard the editors tried to cut me that way. Ooh that's very Jessica Rabbit. "I'm not bad, I'm just cut that way." I like that. The awards should be a blast. I purchased a new J. Lindeberg suit. Any excuse for that. And I'll wear my Cole Haan Wingtips. Classic.

What else? Hm mm... I gave a guy the heave ho. I'm not one to be manipulated no matter how subtle. I learned from the best (I love you D)! Now I'm involved in a long distance relationship. Do those things really work? Lots of text messages and gifts going back and forth. It's sweet. Chaste with the exception of some very dirty texts. I'm happy.

I'm addicted to MySpace. Yeah I know. It's so low rent. And every time you open a page yet another stupid song plays and there is some ghetto visual assault. I love it. I do have rules and standards. No one under 18 on my page. And you can't just add me. You must send me a note and let's see if we have something in common. I'm not a Pokemon. You can't collect me. Ooh reality star trading cards! There's an idea. Nice. So anyway today I get a friend request from a 16 year old girl. Obviously she didn't read my profile or she would have known not to bother. Here are the notes she sent:

From: Princess
Date: Oct 23 2006 12:14 PM
Subject: Hey
Body: im only 16 but you shuld still let me be your friend cuz just like you i like being a bitch

From: Marcellas Reynolds
Date: Oct 23, 2006 12:18 PM
Subject: Princess
Body: Sorry. First some of my friends have mature content on my page. And second I'm not a bitch. I make no claim to be that nor do I want to be one.

M*

From: Princess
Date: Oct 23, 2006 12:25 PM
Subject: RE:Princess
Body: then y did you say alll the stuff on big brother that you did i would call that a little bitchy

From: Marcellas
Date: Oct 23 2006 12:30 PM
Body: Don't get the character on a TV show confused with the person. You just watched 3 hours a week out of our entire lives.
You don't know us. Most importantly I've never met you and haven't been anything but courteous to you.

Take care.

M*

From: Princess
Date: Oct 23 2006 12:37 PM
Subject: RE:Princess
Body: ok im sorry i was wrong

From: Marcellas
Date: Oct 23 2006 12:38 PM
Subject: Princess
Body: No prob. Apology accepted.

Take care.

M*

What amazes me is that people really think they know you or know something about you because they watched you for 3 hours a week. Or longer if they had the live feeds. Let's not forget the feeders! They really think they know you because they have nothing better to do than watch hour after hour of the House Guests. And then make tributes to us! Set to music! That's laughable! Fucking Youtube needs to be destroyed. Hell so do the feeds.

Here's the thing; I have never been rude to a fan of Big Brother unless they were rude to me first. My mother taught me to show people respect until they disrespect you. Anything I said to or about anyone playing the Big Brother game is between me and them. If I meet you I'm going to be courteous and nice and I expect the same. Ignorant people sitting @ home hating on strangers amazes me. There's so much stuff happening in the World that is important. Find it. A show like Big Brother and even these web-sites are only meant to entertain. That's what the 14 House Guests did this summer. We tried to be entertaining. Take it for what it is.

Is that the trade off for a career in entertainment? People saying whatever they want about you? Does the truth walk out the door because of the price of a ticket or the click of a remote? Do strangers get to disrespect you because they own a TV? As Lindsay once sang;

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well, I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me do
The things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand
Why would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life (but not the way you want me to)

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

I'm out. I've got an audition and a coffee date and then I shoot the awards. As Mike Boogie would yell, "It's a wrap!"

M*

BOYS I LIKE...2.0!

2006-10-18T15:54:00.000-07:00

FIRST OFF LET ME SAY WOW! I've met so many fans of Big Brother in the month since the show ended! They have been so amazing. The AIDS Walk was the bomb, so much fun though Erika, James and Janelle bailed on me... I still love them. Kinda. I had a blast with a few "Jan-atics" and one extremely cute "Fan-cellas."

Do you think it's okay to date a fan? Or maybe just fu... Okay enough of that!

Without further ado, BOYS I LIKE...2.0:

Just missed the cut) JAMES RHINE:

Sweet baby James, as I like to call him. I fell in love this summer and no it wasn't with Kaysar. Yes, he has a girlfriend. Yes, she is beautiful. Yes, she's the most beautiful girl in BB history. And yes, she's a friend. But I love him! James showed me his butt in the house and I almost passed out. It was pure, pale perfection. I'll never get over it. Ever.

10) EDWARD NORTON
If you haven't seen The Illusionist, run don't walk. It's gorgeous. Eddie is back; thin, sexy and works long hair and a goatee like no one else. And he can act. He brings it. And let's not forget how hot he was in American History X. Or Fight Club... Hell he was hot in Death To Smoochy.

9) MARK PHILIPPOUSSIS!!!!!

8) RAFAEL NADAL

7) JAMES BLAKE

Tennis players own it right now. One hot one after another. It's enough to make someone pick up a racket. Or maybe just go to the U.S. Open!

6) TONY DURAN

Tony is a talented photographer. He's big and sexy in person. He's very sweet and just a bit shy. It's the hottest combo.

5) CHANNING TATUM...

Model/dancer/actor/whatever the hell he wants to be. I'm buying the platinum edition of Step Up and playing it on slow. Over and over and over again.

4) IAN THORPE

Ian has moved to L.A. to "pursue other opportunities." How hot is that? I hope he still swims. Not much is better than Ian in a speedo.

3) T.I.

"What you know about that?" Hey I know all about that.

2) MIKE ROBERTS

What do you do when the boy next door strips down and shows it off? You rent. You rent long and hard. And often.

1) REGGIE BUSH

As Michael Jackson once wrote and Diana Ross once sang, "I want Muscles." All I can get. I am now a football fan. What team does he play for again?

And for the 1st time ever, ladies and gentlemen we have a tie!!!!! Yes! A tie. 2 men hold the key to my heart. Here they are the hottest of the hot:
JAMIE DORNAN & WENTWORTH MILLER

Jamie is a model/actor who dated Keira Knightley and was linked to Sienna Miller post Jude. How the hell does Sienna pull the hotties?! She ain't even cute. Always looks a bit dishevelled. Which is a nice way of saying she looks like a hot, steaming mess often. Anyway Jamie is making the transition to actor in Marie Antoinette. Right now I'm obsessed with his Levis Slim Straight jeans commercial. Every time I see it I have to rewind Tivo over and over and over. I mean the other day I tried on the Slim Straight jean @ Barneys in Bev Hills. I'm skinny and all but I still have a Black boy butt. It wasn't pretty. They were like denim leggings on me. Not sexy. But on Jamie? It works.

Went (as I call him) is the hottest. He is my prison fantasy. Please. He'd never go to jail. Who would convict him? Arrest me though. For love in the 1st degree. Or stalking! Went, if loving you is wrong, I can't be right!

Okay I'm being a bit silly! Like a 12 year old boy crazy girl. But it's fun!

M*

STUPID STUFF TRAPPED IN MY HEAD... RANDOMNESS 7!

2006-10-10T20:26:00.000-07:00

So I'm crazed. Some of you are like, "Yeah, idiot. We knew that." But right now I am. I met a really nice boy (gay guys are always "boys", no matter how old they are). He's very sweet. But aren't they always sweet @ the beginning until they rip back their skin and show that underneath they are a lizard creature like on the 80's TV show V? Anyway he's nice. Sexy. And I'm thrilled.

I'm overlooking the nude screen captures of me from All-Stars I found on his computer... Okay, I'm joking!

Janelle had to cancel and will not be doing the AIDS Walk with me this weekend. I'll be doing it with my pretend husband, James and with my Erika. It's a bit of a reunion. Of a few of my faves from this summer.

I just purchased a new trench coat from Club Monaco. Like I needed it, since I have one already. But that one is black and this one is navy and very chic. Everyone should own a trench. Girls should wear it to their boyfriend's house with nothing under it. Just the trench and a pair of heels. Oh and a single strand of barely pink pearls. Guys however shouldn't do that as that would make them drag queens and no one wants to see that!

I'm interviewing Kayne from Project Runway for my new gig as contributing writer @ AfterElton. I wish it was Michael Kors, as I have a huge crazy crush on him but I can't have everything. I've always wanted to be a writer and AfterElton has given me the chance. My editor is sooo funny. Here's a sample of our emails:

From: M J
To: MR

Date: Oct 10, 2006 3:11 PM

Subject: Re: Kayne Gillaspie interview questions.

Just saw your other email. You'll never get to ask 75 questions. How often on BB did you give interviews where you answered that many questions?!? Like I said, prioritize, and then see where the conversation goes. Why don't you send me the questions again after you've got them in order.

Michael

----- Original Message -----

From: M R

KIDNAPPED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-06T10:11:00.000-07:00

By now everyone knows of my summer in purgatory. I had a sh*%ty time on Big Brother All-Stars. With a rigged game and less than ideal company, my stay was not pleasant. To add insult to injury someone kidnapped Boo.

Yes, Boo!

Okay he was stolen from my hotel room.

The second most famous gnome in the world. Second only in fame to that damn Travelocity guy. Boo was up for that gig! It's a very sore subject with him so if you see him please don't mention it!

The House Guests were sequestered @ the Sheraton Universal City. Boo was allowed to visit me on Monday the 11th. We were not allowed to leave the room until the taping of the finale on the 12th. Boo did not accompany me to the taping (he's still a bit frightened of Danielle, though I love her). I didn't return to the hotel until Thursday the 14th w/Lisa D. (winner of BB 3), a friend of Boo's.

And he was gone!

Yes, I speak of Boo as if he were a real person. If you watched season 3 you know how we met. The House Guests painted gnomes for a competition. I painted mine Black. Like me. In fact I said @ the time, "Boo is what I'll look like @ 70." Well Boo survived the Gnome Drop veto competition, where Danielle tried to kill him. And a friendship that has lasted 4 years was born. He was there when I didn't use the Golden Veto. He was there when La Chen slapped me on the head. And he's been there ever since.

If you see him please contact me! I miss him. He's my friend.

RANDOMNESS... PT. 6

2006-10-01T06:26:00.000-07:00

This is just a little bit of what's going on in my life right now:

I just purchased a Rolex. I've always wanted one. I thought I'd have a rich husband (by now damn it) who would buy me one. But God bless the child whose got his own and now I do. It's gorgeous. And I'm worth it. After my summer in purgatory I deserve something nice.

My name appears in a baby book. My best friend Kata is pregnant with her 1st child. She and her husband were leafing through Beyond Jennifer and Jason, Madison and Montana & there in the Reality Star section is Marcellas from Big Brother. Spelled correctly. That's just crazy! Does that mean there are little Marcellases out there, named after moi? Love it!

Esquire named Scarlett Johansson the sexiest woman alive. Hm mmm... Who gets to make that determination? I would say SJ is sexy. Ripe. Pretty. But the sexiest woman alive? Um mmm... No. Off the top of my head I'd pick Giselle or Adrianna Lima. Angelina Jolie. Maybe Naomi. Hell even trashy Pam Anderson. But Scarlett? Not my top 5. But then I'm gay. What do I know?

Janelle and I are doing the Los Angeles AIDS Walk October 15th. We'll be on stage with all the real celebs who will be wondering who the hell we are. I did the walk in 2002 after Big Brother 3 w/Lisa. We were late and tried to sneak on stage and the crowd went nuts. Right in the midst of Eric McCormack's speech. Jill Hennessy and Rita Moreno looked @ us like, "Who the hell?" I love that story. It's right up there with Dakota Fanning running up to Lisa and I @ the Dream Halloween event, dressed like Alice in Wonderland and doing a dead on imitation of Amy during one of our fights! She looked like a mini-Amy, long blond wig and all. And she's screaming, "I love you Marcellas! I didn't do it! I didn't do it!" Classic.

Dylan and I went out last night. So many cute boys. And lots of fans. Everyone wants to know if I speak to Howie (yes, I got a text from him last night, "Your dreamy! Love Jedi BB-6 and 7 all star Howie.") and if I made up with Janelle (we never broke up). Oh and they wanna know how Erika is (fine and beautiful). And beating guys off with a stick. Erika says we were the villains last season. Does that mean she was Joan Collins and I was Diahann Carroll on a very low-budget remake of Dynasty? Besides I think Chill Town played that part.

I'm writing a new monthly column for Afterelton.com called Reality Check. It's fun. I already have 2 up! Pre-Big Brother and post-Big Brother. The articles will be about my life as a covergirl. Oh wait... I just had that fantasy where I'm a winner on America's Next Top Model. The articles are going to about life as a reality personality and about reality TV. A view from the inside as it were. My next assignment: Project Runway. I have major crushes on Tim Gunn and Michael Kors. I guess it's a bit of a daddy thing. Sorry I digress...

I'm still selling TEAM MARCELLAS tees. The proceeds benefit my fave charity Project Angel Food. Now that I'm out of the house if you buy one I'll even autograph it for you. And for a bigger donation, I'll get your fave All-Star to sign it too...

And last but by no means least, October is my month. Yes, it's here. I'm Mr. October in the 2006 Sexiest Men of Reality TV calendar. For all the Internet freaks who wanted to see me shirtless during All-Stars, here it is. Sorry, the calendar sold out when Big Brother started. I actually look better now. I lost 18 lbs. during the show. But stress and food deprivation is not a diet I recommend!

As ever-

M*

12 OF 12 SEPTEMBER!!!!!

2006-09-25T11:26:00.000-07:00

So I was away for 3 long, horrid, agonizing months (actually it wasn't that bad and I kinda miss it). I was released from captivity on the 12th. It was hard doing time on the rock. This post also represents the last mention you will see from me about Big Brother All-Stars. I've got a few interviews (and a cover) coming out and that's it.

Aren't we all kinda over it?

I call this pic runway. I look cute. Happy. I lost 18 lbs. in the house. 12 in the BB house and 6 while I was sick in sequester. My jeans are custom-made Earnest Sewn. I love them!

Pinkisthenewblackbaby.

I had a deal with these 2 knuckleheads. We were friends outside the house. I thought this would be the final 3. Ah well...

Not the 12 I would've imagined! Amy should have been there. And Nicole and Hardy. And my Lisa! Oh and Jun.

I rather like Danielle's dress. Her mom picked it out.

Janelle and her boys. Howie and I were pretty useless this season. Unless we were @ each others throats! Talk about an odd couple. Hey, I should pitch that!

We all couldn't wait to get to our phones! I couldn't even work mine!

These are the 2 peeps I miss the most. How crazy is that? George was good. And James really was sweet. Yeah, I know he had a temper but he was passionate! That's what you want in an All-Star!

1st call? My little momma! She's so cute! She was all, "Don't tell me who won!"

I call this Charlie's Angels coz that's how I referred to us in the house. That is until Janie nom'd Erika.

I voted for Erika because I thought her answer to my jury question was the best. She did talk Janelle into evicting Will. Will readily admits that. Mike's answer was not good though his endgame was strong to quite strong. I was torn. I thought they both played good games.

Erika was and is my girl. I met her @ an audition and she ran up to me and said, "I love you." She was dressed as a cheerleader. She got her commercial. Mine was a beer commercial. I booked it and CBS wouldn't let me do it since Citrona sponsored season 3. What a rip-off!

So as my girl Danni would say, "That's it, that's all." As I would say, "It is what it is." See you next season on House Calls: 4.0!

EMAILS...EMAILS...EMAILS!

2006-09-24T02:57:00.000-07:00

I'm back and slowly but surely getting caught up. I'm finally unpacked, though to be honest most of the things I wore on the show I never want to see again. Except my bathrobe!

It's taken me this long to get through my emails. In my personal email account I had 1,134. Most were from friends and family wishing they could speak to me. Though I often felt alone this season, I wasn't. They were there with me. So many sweet notes.

In my fan-site in box I had 2,572 emails! Crazy. Most were from viewers of Big Brother. And of course, spam for Cialis and stock alerts. The notes were awesome. They ranged from outrage ("how dare I turn on Janelle!"), to adoration ("that was the greatest diary room ever" or "you were the only one Chill Town couldn't fool!"). Some thought I was the villain (um mmm... that would be Will and Mike) and many thought I should have won (that would be Janelle, maybe Erika or James because he's so hot). And a surprising amount want to date me. Or something else that 2 people could do together... Anyway here are 3 of my stand-out fave emails:

I love this note. This woman is funny!

Ok, first let me say I KNOW I don't know you personally. I KNOW you are on a show for three months and that doesn't tell people who you REALLY are. That being said, this is my third email to you since BB3. I'm the one that keeps telling you you need your own sitcom (why it hasn't happened yet is beyond me) and YOU need to be hosting Big Brother but I understand why that will never happen, unless of course Miss Julie wants out.

Now for my venting . . .

Over the course of BB history I've met my husband, married him and had two beautiful kids. Every summer it has been a fantastic diversion for us to see BB and the live feeds. I'm more fanatical about the feeds than my hubby is though.

Over the last couple of weeks while watching you all, everyone except "Daddy" has gotten sick. My ear infection, I found out, was directly related to listening to the feeds with my earphones every night!!! I only mention our sicknesses because due to my three-year-old's health history getting sick for him is very nerve-wracking so watching the feeds as we watch his temperature during the night has been a pleasant distraction.

I have to say the weirdest moment for me thus far has been watching you and Janelle take a bath together. Just writing it gives me that icky feeling. It is a bizarre thing.

I have a couple of things to say. First, use the stinkin' veto on yourself if you get it. (I know. You of course will but I had to say it.) Second, I voted for you a million times to get in the house and I was as shocked as you that America didn't vote you in. Lastly, be smart. WIN THIS YEAR. I want you to kick some all-star butt! I want you and Janelle in the final two. I'm not too crazy about her but I respect her game play thus far. That is unless she screws you over. I even like Danielle more this season but she BETTER NOT screw you over. So I guess I'm saying I don't much care who sits next to you as long as you WIN THE DAMN THING.

So once again, yes I don't know you but I feel like I sorta know you, sorta. Get it? Anyway, I like what I see. Just keep kickin' butt and oh, one more thing. You better get your job back on House Calls next year. I can't believe I have to see Bunky in your chair. Like him yes. Love him, no. Love YOU.

S U*

This is from a fan I lost. She supported my work with Project Angel Food in the past:

I just want you to know that I think your behavior in the "house" towards Janelle was about as nerd herdish as it gets. I am disappointed and though I will continue to donate to Project Angel Food as I think it is a wonderful organization, I won't be doing it in your name anymore. I am disappointed....

X Band*

And this is from my Amy:

Hey Marcellas! I really enjoyed watching you on the show this year. I could tell you were playing harder than last time because you weren't being as mean in a funny way (Tonya and Gerry) as we were on BB3. You were great in the sequester house! Classic! I loved when you called Howie a big Jaba the Hut. As always, you kept me laughing. I guess when you watch the show, you will see my horrid segment. I am upset with myself for even agreeing to let them exploit me and the whole wine and cheese ordeal yet again this year. They interviewed me for 2 hours so they would have enough to totally butcher my words and make what they wanted from it. I was bad mouthing James for being "shady", and when I turned on the television, there I was calling you shady! You know how they do. Anyway, I just wanted to tell you that you did great...and I love and miss you. I would love to hear from you. Please call me when you get a chance.

Love always,

Amykins

I love you too Amy. Oh how I've missed you.

So that is a brief glimpse into "reality stardom." Viewers think they know you. They get mad @ you when you've never met or said a bad thing about them. Some love you because they think you are funny. But those that really know you, know that what you are is a mix. Good and bad. Funny and bitter. And always trying to do the best you can and always trying to be better.

M*

*Certain names have been changed to protect the not-so-innocent!

THE EMAIL THAT MADE ME CRY.

2006-09-19T10:54:00.000-07:00

The concept of fans has always been a bit weird to me. I mean what does that mean, anyway. I like certain actors and artists. I support their work if it's good. If I like it. And I love Francesco Clemente and Vonnegut but I'd never reach out to them. But I guess being a "reality star" and the connection that Big Brother has to the Internet, well I have fans. And detractors. I'm still trying to come to terms with that whole thing and what it means. Here is an email from a member of my forum, whom over the years I've gotten to know very well. She has supported me through good and bad times and I love her. In the midst of all this post BB craziness I just got this from my Neenameena. It's what it's all about. This is a fan. This is a viewer. Everytime I get a note from her it teaches me something. About kindness and forgiveness. About failing and getting up and trying to be better.

I love you Nina.

Dearest Light,

You're back! I tried, so hard, to give you a breather, because, I know that you're being bombarded by emails and calls - catching up, and decompressing from three months boredom, isolation, and "Howie."

I don't want to talk game with you, because, I'm certain that you've discussed it, read about it, and heard about it ad nauseam.

I will say that it did my heart so good, to see you bring closure to the pain that you've carried, and made up with Dani. I completely felt and knew where you were coming from with Julie.

Many things have happened since you have been gone. I had to have mother exhumed; the funeral home blundered. Well, what we saw in the casket was ghastly. Horrendous and it was the last straw for me. I came home, blackened my room, and stopped eating.

However, I was listening to the live feeds one night and I heard a familiar voice say "Hi, Nina." A shout out from my baby! I smiled so big and got out of bed. I sat in my desk chair and laughed robustly. Suddenly hungry, I had a nutritional shake and water.

I hadn't done any of that in weeks. Bless your heart. See, we touch people lives in ways that we never could imagine.

At that moment, I wasn't a fan, stalker, sycophant, cheerleader, but your friend. You were thinking about me in the middle of everything, and that friends' heart touched me, galvanized my spirit, and broke the spell of loss that I was encapsulated in - spiritually, mentally and physically.

When I heard you say "I love women", I smiled and said aloud "go ahead baby, we love you too."

As, I sat meditating about the brokenness of family; I heard you say "Whatever" on House Calls, and I shouted - "you better preach."

My mind gravitated towards the Godly people who have done and said ungodly things to me in my grief - you spoke the wisdom of your mother "some of the biggest devils are in church." And the WORD became truth and life.

As I watched you vote for Erika: I said aloud "there stands a son, brother, cousin, uncle, and father." You alone, cast a vote and sent a universal message; it was unacceptable to brand a woman, sister, and daughter a "ho". Definitely, you showed the meaning of loyalty.

Please know how grateful I am to know your spirit. Thank you, for my surprise. I'm working hard to get better, so, that I can embrace you - dearest brother.

Continue to walk your path in life with your head held high, shoulders back, learning and earning your place in God's kingdom.

Please let Kaysar know that one night I listened to his prayer, and it was so heartfelt. It blessed me to be able to pray again, and allowed my anger with God to dissipate; over the loss of Mother.

Prayer works in whatever language or doctrine.

I missed you, so much, my warrior.

Peace & Blessings,

Nina

IT IS WHAT IT IS.

2006-09-16T10:50:00.000-07:00

For the next few weeks this blog will be dedicated to Big Brother All-Stars. And a little bit about my life now. I'm going to try to make each entry about a specific topic. Things are great! I've hit the ground running and had tons of meetings. I'm up for a gig as on-air fashion expert for a major talk show. Already scheduled to work for Style Network again. I just don't wanna sit still! I wanna work! And oh my gosh how amazing have the fans I've met been! It might not have been fun to be on All-Stars but apparently it was fun to watch.

For almost 3 months I had to hold my tongue. To numb it down in order to play a game. Well it's over and the real Marcellas is back. Gregarious, blunt and no-holds-barred. Let me squelch a rumor here, right now; I'm not in a rift with anyone from Big Brother. I was late to the cast party because I was having dinner with a very special guy. And it was long and very good. Dinner that is! I didn't get to hang out with the hgs that much because of dinners with my agents, publicist and friends. Not because I'm mad. All-Stars is over. Let it go. I have. I intend to be friends with every House Guest. I'll hang with Will and Boogie, be pissed off because men suck with Erika, shop with the Buxom Blond Bombshell and I actually wanna spend a day with George doing whatever he wants. But I'm not having sex with Howie! We can just cuddle. All-Stars was just another TV gig. It was what it was.

Todays topic: An unhappy Marcellas is still Marcellas...

As Will says, "Play your role." I was cut as the "sulky, angry, aggressive, gay guy." And you know what? I'll own that. I was sulky. I was angry. Because 10 minutes after walking into the house I knew the fix was in. I knew I had no chance of winning All-Stars. As a student of the game for the past few years because of House Calls, I came into Big Brother with a strategy and a desire to play the game. To right past wrongs and to win. The most obvious problem with All-Stars was allowing 4 people from a still existing alliance to come in the house intact. This could have easily been remedied by not putting 5 cast members from season 6 in the 20 candidates eligible to go inside! And the 4 that made it? All members of the Sovereign 6. Hm mm... And Chill Town? How many times did Will gloat that he cut a deal with the producers, claiming he wouldn't do All-Stars if his boy, Mike, didn't make it in? How is that fair? I would love to have been able to insure that my friend (Lisa, winner Big Brother 3) made it in. Is it true Will had a deal with the producers? I personally don't care. It's water under a bridge that's already collapsed.

At the beginning I was optimistic. I was a fan of "The 4" (from season 6). I was friends with Mike and Will socially in Hollywood. Hell, I knew every house guest except for George. I thought this would be an advantage. Instead it became a hurdle. Rumors flying that I had deals with everyone in the house. And so what if I did? The pre-game alliances weren't a secret among the house guests or the producers. I was from the school that the moment the doors opened all that pre-game plotting would go flying out the window. Much like my desire to work with Chill Town. I'm not stupid. I knew that the 3rd wheel in any alliance with them would be the 1st person thrown under the bus. You simply could not get between Mike and Will (see Jase). I decided to toss my hat in with The 4. And that was a disaster immediately. It seemed the producers put several of us in the house to surround Janelle. As much as I love Janelle, and I do love Janelle, I didn't come into the house to play for her. I came to play for myself! I also didn't come into Big Brother to be a part of "Amy and Marcellas: 2.0" or to be Janelle's lapdog. Her friend, yes. Part of a secret alliance, definitely. But I had no desire to be the over-the-top gay best friend. That was 2002. And I have grown. I'm a man. I'm an adult. I just wanted to play the game. Strategically.

Here is my biggest problem with the way I was edited on Big Brother All-Stars; they never showed me strategizing in the diary room or one on one with Janelle. I was cut to be the pissed off guy who didn't want to interact. I laid my strategy out in the diary room constantly. I talked about going under the radar. Reigning myself in. I said all the things I wanted to say to players faces but couldn't, in the diary room! That's what the diary room is for! Venting. Getting things off your chest! Having a moment! And then it's done and you go back out and you make nice! You play the game! You can not tell people off or yell at people and win Big Brother. You can't get in someones face and then expect them to forgive it. You do that in the diary room. The players aren't being two-faced if they are pissed and they unload in the diary. They are being smart! Me not wanting to be funny-crazy-zany Marcellas did not work with the producers "Will and Grace" vision of Janelle and I. Further, if you want to cut me as pissed off then tell the audience why I'm angry! I'm pissed because I couldn't sleep. I'd lay there hour after hour in my cashmere and silk mask with my eyes open! I'm pissed because the house was an ice box (which is why I wore my robe so much). I'm pissed because I felt Janelle and Chill Town were favored by production. I'm pissed because the slop made us sick. I'm pissed because every 30 seconds the voice of Big Brother boomed @ decibels far louder than necessary, "Will, Please stop singing." Or "Jase, stop that." Or "Mike, please treat your microphone with respect." I felt like I was in a prison camp, being tortured! I'm pissed that I was sick and not allowed to see the doctor. And when I was allowed to, he couldn't take my temperature because he left his disposable thermometers in the trunk of his car and they didn't work! I'm pissed that I was so sick for so long that by the time James got to Mexico I had to go to the hospital where the doctor told me if I'd waited any longer I would have had pneumonia. As it was I had an infection which started in my chest and moved up resulting in a painful ear infection. Finally someone listened to me! And I cried in the doctor's office. Because I hadn't been feeling well for weeks! And the producers knew that! So for the remainder of All-Stars I was on 2 antibiotics, which gave me stomach aches and diarrhea, an antihistamine, which made me sleepy immediately after taking it and an anti-inflammatory for my ear, which I could barely hear out of and was a source of constant pain. If I seemed like a bitch in sequester, there's reason. Sorry Howie, I didn't feel like playing with you. My head aches.

I didn't really enjoy All-Stars. It wasn't what I thought it would be. And that's okay. I expected smarter play from all of us (myself included). The thing is, it's a reality show and what was wrong with me being disappointed? That's real. My mantra for getting through All-Stars? A quote by Pablo Neruda: They can cut away the flowers but spring still comes.

I'll leave you with that.

Smooches!

M*

AND THEN THERE WERE 2.

2006-09-15T01:05:00.000-07:00

This is what I know (or think anyway); life is difficult. People are human and will fail each other. Not all is as it seems and we don't know anything. @ the end of the day we can only do our best. If we can get out unscathed and love and maybe forgive each other it makes us better.

I didn't win Big Brother All-Stars but I got Danielle. I got Diane. I got Erika. I got Janelle and now it seems I have Amy back. Who knew I'd make-up with Danielle and now even Amy? Maybe, for me, the show was about closure. And a side of growth.

I already love all those knuckleheads from All-Stars. Yep, even Howie, even Boogie. Okay "loves" a bit strong...Let's say forgive. It was just a very strange game. And we did the best we could.

I can already look back @ it and smile.

M*

HE'S BACK...

2006-09-13T03:55:00.000-07:00

Done. Finished. Finito.

Big Brother All Stars is over. I made it through. Love me. Hate me? I got a check coming. What is the 1st thing I'm buying? A Rolex. It was just a game and for me just another TV appearance. I hope all 14 of us find what we were looking for. Will we all be friends? Can we forgive one another? I hope so. If not, thanks for keeping me til sequester. I had kind of a blast.

This is how I wanna remember us. Smiling.

AAAHHHH...IT'S OVER.

2006-06-29T01:11:00.000-07:00

So the voting ended. I'm glad. It's in the hands of fate now. Or the cosmos. Or God. It's been a week. Such a week. Long. Tedious. Exhilarating. Hard. Exhausting. I feel like I spent more time on the net than ever. Did I campaign hard enough? Did I vote for myself enough? I resisted the lure of the auto-voter. On a personal level, I thought that was cheating. Don't get me wrong, I'm flattered some of my fans did it for me but is that what CBS/Shapiro Groedner really had in mind? And watching some of my fellow contenders actively beg for their use? Gross. Yeah, I went out there and did some press, a few TV spots, a bunch of interviews and chats. Heck I even made a t-shirt. But @ the end of the day if a computer can send out 50 bijillion votes a minute should I have even bothered?

Campaigning gave me a chance to re-connect with fans. I got to witness 1st hand the good and the bad that accompanies being a "reality star." Again. Some things never change! I'll never understand why I'm bashed over something I said in passing 4 years ago. Talk about holding a ridiculous grudge! And it's not even being held by the people of whom I spoke. The thing is I spoke of those I knew. We all gave as good as we got! If we can forgive and move forward why can't the viewer? How can anyone be judged by 12 weeks of their life? Unless of course they murder someone and then... I don't know, I guess I'm having one of those "is it really worth it" moments. But that's what the naysayers and haters want. To kill your buzz. Your dream. You have to push past that. Ignore it like so much white noise. And keep moving toward your goal.

To all the peeps that voted for me, thank you. To my friends @ marcellasreynolds.com, you know I love you. To hottie hot Ethan @ Brat Boy School, no campaign manager has ever been hotter. Thanks Shannon and Lance. I think it's funny you voted for me. And Shannon I'm not asking myself, "What would Shannon do?"

I can't wait to find out if it was worth it. Strike that. Even if I don't make it in, it was worth it. And I think I got a shot!

THE SLAP HEARD AROUND THE WORLD.

2006-06-27T12:27:00.000-07:00

So we all know my girl is in trouble again. You know I loves me some Naomi. And who hasn't had trouble with the help? Though my roommie and I love our current maid. Not to mention she could probably take us 2 queens down in .02 seconds! The woman just moved a sofa by herself, the same one Eric and I both drag about the floor, huffing and puffing while scratching the hardwood! I think Naomi should be forgiven for her...let's say, short temper. She is after all one of the World's most beautiful women. Naomi's current predicament got me thinking, "Who will I smack this summer?"

Without further ado the top contenders to get smacked by Marcellas during Big Brother All Stars:

1. Janelle if she pulls that "Bye bye bitches" routine on me. I ain't Beau or Jenn or Maggie. I don't play that.
2. Diane and Dana if either of them fall for the wrong man again. And the wrong man ladies is anyone but me!
3. Danielle. Everyone is expecting some crazy battle royale between D and I. To be honest she will probably smack me 1st!
4. Will on his hot, skinny ass!
5. Jase (see #4).
6. James (see #s 4 and 5).
7. Alison. As a former pageant girl she knows the joy of a good over-dramatic smack! We can be like Joan Collins and Heather Locklear on Dynasty! We can even fake fall into the pool!
8. Bunky coz everyone loves a good gay slap fight!
9. Chicken George. Dude what up with the chicken suit? Isn't it a bit hot? Actually I'm looking forward to meeting CG!
10. Julie Chen! She hit me 1st!

Seriously, this is all in jest! I'm not hitting anyone. I'm really excited and honored to be a part of this madness. I can't wait. I think it's going to be a fun summer. Now I just hope I make it in!

BATTLE ROYALE!!!!!

2006-06-23T17:19:00.000-07:00

So much is happening so quick! I'm @ StarMagazine.com with Mike Boogie. Mike is crazy! Can I really live with that?

I'm also on Out.com where they compare Bunky and I. It's really funny and a great chance to see 2 out men represent!

Crazy!!! Go here to see my campaign schedule! And to vote!

Remember: VOTE LONG, VOTE HARD, VOTE OFTEN.

M*

FOUND!!! THE REAL GOLDEN POWER OF VETO!

2006-06-23T15:08:00.000-07:00

So Big Brother makes this big deal about having past "artifacts" in the house on BB7. During the wrap party for BB3 I was summoned over to the Big Table (where Arnold, Alison, Don & Jon Kroll were sitting). On the table was a small lacquered box. Now I'm the kinda boy that knows a gift when he sees one. Arnold proceeds to hand me the box. Now @ this point I'm all atwitter. I'm thinking, "Is this a Rolex or a Tag?" "How nice since I made your damn show!" I was actually preparing a thank you speech. Only to open the box and find not a watch, not a little trinket to put in the vault but the DAMN GOLDEN POWER OF F*%kIN VETO! Clowned again.

And what does a boy say to that? Having the object of your destruction/humiliation given to you gift wrapped; "Gee. Thanks Guys. I thought it was a watch you cheap bastards!" No, that's not what I said as I love those guys. I laughed as we all did. But I resisted all attempts to make me put it on.

The Veto. It always scared me. I was so shocked when I won it. Remember these were the "good ole days." The veto was 1st introduced season 3. We were frightened! It was "Expect The Unexpected." Gerry used it on me and saved my life. I'm thankful but I'll always wonder if would have beat that eviction nomination ala Nicole and Will K. I had a tough 1st week but I battled back. I guess I'll never know.

I sold the Golden Veto I was given that night. I sold it on eBay. In a crazy bidding war, a lesbian couple got it. They were so nice to me. I still talk to them to this day. This is their son D, wearing the Veto. It looks better on him than me. Wear that bling D! And if you are ever in the position to save yourself or someone else? Do what feels right for you. @ the end of the day you have to be able to live with your mistakes and triumphs.

2006-06-22T03:25:00.000-07:00

So is it crazy to want back in? Last time I got my feelings very hurt. But along the way I managed to laugh, cry, make some friends and have one of the greatest times of my life. Am I a crazed thrill seeker, an attention ho or a glutton for punishment? My mom says, "A hard head makes a soft behind." I think in life you gotta take your shot, have your moment and hope/pray for the best.

I've been chosen to compete for a spot on Big Brother All Stars. Please click here and vote for me. Vote long, hard and often! ;)

I want back in.

And yes, this time I'll use the veto.

M*

12 OF 12...5!!!!

2006-06-14T15:04:00.000-07:00

Hey I'm doing the Hollywood 100 Charity Auction for Project Angel Food! Check it out and bid. They are so many great prizes!

So this may be my last 12 OF 12 for a while. It's a good one because it really shows what my life is like.

Lately it's all about the gym and diet for me. I get up and hit the gym 1st thing for cardio on an empty stomach. I do 45 minutes 5xs a week. And 3/4xs a week Melanie and I run in the late afternoon.

I hate working out. It bores me. I have a gym play list that keeps me going. The song Hate Me Now by NaS really gets me going.

(Chorus) Well you hate me I'm gon' hate you too It's as simple as that You don't give a fuck I don't give a fuck Go down any way you want it to go down Weak, jealous motherfuckers Fuck y'all! (Verse 2) You wanna hate me then hate me; what can I do but keep gettin money, funny I was just like you I had to hustle hard never give up, until I made it Now y'all sayin that's a clever nigga, nuttin to play with Hate on me, I blew but I'm the same ol G People warn me, when you're on top there's envy Took my niggas out the hood, but you doubt on us Sayin we left the hood but can't get it out of us My bad, should I step out my shoes, give 'em to you? Here's my cars and my house, you can live in that too Criticize when I flow for the streets, hate my dress code Gucci this, Fendi that, what you expect hoe

I love NaS and I know how he feels. I have my share of crazies trying to clown me too. I'm not that hard-core about it. I'm a bit of a pragmatist. Say whatever the hell you want but keep using my name. @ the end of the day it only adds to my fame. Ooh look I'm a rapper too!

This is our frig. It's also a shrine to hot guys and pretty girls. It's where I keep the unfiltered apple juice and flax seed oil for my Maxx Muscle Banana Chocolate Creme Pie protein shakes. 8 oz juice, 8 oz Smartwater, some frozen berries, 2 tbsp flax seed oil and 2 scoops protein powder. Kinda yummy.

Today is crazy. I have 2 auditions very close to each other. I also have a meeting about a hosting gig. I hate being this busy. I love it but it's times like these I realize I need to hire a driver. Or learn to drive. But I'd rather have a driver. A hot one who puts out...

The bus. Yeah, I ride the bus. In L.A. People find that amazing. Even if I had a car I'd still take the bus. Though sometimes it's not so glam. Today was okay. There was a gardener ahead of me, a homeless woman ahead of him, a crazily dressed older woman in a brocade mini in front of her and a super hot gay tourist in front of everyone. @ least I think he was gay. He was definitely hot.

This is the door to the casting agency. I'm here for Verizon.

My size sheet, sides and head shot. They changed the sides on us! Added more lines! Damn!

Here I am crossing the street to audition #2. I hate touching those "push to cross" buttons. Especially over on Las Palmas and Santa Monica. Not pretty. Not pretty at all.

Another size sheet, more sides and my head shot. Pretty in pink.

Actors waiting. The guy on the left is hot as hell! I almost hope he gets it more than me. Almost.

Here's me on the 25 cent bus on the way home. My outfit was hot today. True Religion jeans, brown suede wing-tip boot, brown Club Monaco shirt and a brown pin-striped J. Lindbergh blazer. I'm listening to Pieces Of Me by Ashlee Simpson. I love her and that song.

On the way home I stop and buy the new TV Guide because I'm in it and the new Star magazine because I'm in it and a 20g protein Clif bar because I'm hungry. Tonight? Laundry.

M*

MUSINGS...WHICH IS REALLY RANDOMNESS...WHICH IS JUST STUFF ON MY MIND.

2006-06-08T19:24:00.000-07:00

So I'm trying to blog as much as possible just in case I'm busy this summer. Heck I'm busy now. I'm working and that is a very good thing. I'm also having many meetings and tons of auditions. It always gets busy before Big Brother. Most actors worry over pilot season. I do too but I know that for me I'm going to stay busy through the summer. It's like Big Brother season pops back up and bam! People are like "Where's Marcellas?" Kinda like Where's Waldo without the stripe sweater. Though I liked that sweater. It was kinda chic.

In keeping with the theme of past musings posts, here goes:

Right now I'm listening to the new Nelly Furtado single, Promiscuous. Nelly is getting flak from some fans for selling out. For experimenting with Hip-Hop. Yeah, right. So all those fans that didn't buy Folklore but loved Turn Out The Light are pissed. That's about as stupid as the Internet fans that hate me because I didn't eviscerate Maggie and Ivette not 12 hours after they'd walked off the Big Brother 6 set. Nelly can do what she wants. She doesn't belong to anyone. All she can do is entertain and try to do the best job she can. That's all she owes anyone.

And where does the need to censor an artists' creative spirit come from? Do I sound bitter? I'm just readying myself for the onslaught of summer and having every word, gesture, look, and nuance dissected and then distorted and in some cases lied about. Oh well as long as someone is watching.

Whatever.

So Promiscuous sounds like My Humps by the Black Eyed Peas (another group who was accused of selling out) which sounds like Don't Cha and Beep by PCD. And you know how I feel about the Pussycat Dolls. And they all sound kinda like Check On It by Beyonce. Can we get a bit of originality please? But I can't talk. All of the aforementioned songs are on my iPod. And I love them all. Don't tell nobody.

What I don't like is the new Kelis single Bossy. It's too...I don't know. I've loved Kelis for ages. Her album, Kaleidoscope, is one of my faves. I loved her before her Milkshake brought all the boys to the yard. I hated that song BTW. Actually I didn't but one night I was in a gay bar (go figure, there's a shock) and they played it for the 3 millionth time and all the boys went crazy. It was really unattractive. So much lip-syncing and arm flailing and out loud singing! Who sings? I mean these kids were worked up into a frenzy. As though the song were about, written expressly for them! It was insane. And I was creeped out. 1000 guys screaming and dancing to a song that they've heard a billion times and probably had on repeat as they got dressed that night. And then to add insult to injury the disc jockey played Don't Cha right after. The crowd went nuts! I bout fainted.

This was the same night that my girl, Valerie clowned me! So we are at the 3rd bar of the evening and probably into the 6th drink of the night and I notice my crush. Not a crush, the crush! There is a boy that works in a store at my 2nd fave mall that I am in love with. HE doesn't work @ a store I particularly like or respect, for that matter, but every time I'm @ that mall I stop in that store. Or by the window. Just to see HIM. And HE always catches me looking dumbfounded by HIS beauty and HE's so sweet that HE just smiles and waves and then probably goes to the stock room to alert security that one of HIS many stalkers is in the mall...Again. I loves me some HIM. And I've got the receipts from purchases that I will never wear to prove it. Anyway just as the Milkshake/Don't Cha frenzy is peaking in HE strolls like a beautiful paragon of cool. Here's me to Val: "Oh my God V! The guy is here!" Val: "Who?" Me: "The guy I love from the Bev Center! HE's walking this way!" (I squeal like a 12 year old girl @ her 1st school dance.) "HE's looking this way!" And what does my girl V, my partner in crime do as HE walks over to uncomfortably say hi? Drunkenly points her exquisitely manicured finger in HIS face and says, "Him? This is the guy you love?" Uncomfortable silences all around. The only thing that would have made the moment worse? If the music had stopped. Luckily it didn't. Thanks Val.

In an effort to reach some sort of mental clarity I am swearing off men. More specifically sex. Boys are icky anyway. Here are some other things I'm swearing off:

HFCS or high-fructose corn syrup
Porn
21 year old strippers who are really escorts
White bread
The New York Post
Cupcakes
Texting (yeah that will happen)
21 year olds in general
Shopping (fat ass chance)
Souplantation
Krispy Kreme doughnuts and Ikea on the same day
Cabo Cantina
Drinking
Defamer/Gawker

Madonna is the new face of H & M one of my fave stores. Depending upon who shoots the campaign it could be very cool. Oh and Forever 21 now carries menswear. Hot! And cheap. and you can shop on-line. You can't do that @ H & M. Or Club Monaco.

Right now instead of going to the gym I'm listening to my gym play list. I'm hoping through some sort of muscle memory it will promote the burning of unwanted fat! Songs on my gym play list (just a random sampling):
2 Hearts, Sugababes
Hypnotic Tango, My Mine
You're Beautiful (Almighty Rad Remix), James Blunt
Does He Really Love Me, Keyshia Cole
Rumors, Lindsay Lohan (my absolute anthem)
Precious Box, George Michael
Isaac, Madonna
My Lovin' Goes, Christina Milian
Diamonds From Sierra Leone (Remix), Kanye West
What You Know, T.I. (my fine ass fantasy husband who is the newest "Boy I Like")

The other day my girl J sends me this:

*Although the name Marcellas creates an interest in the deeper aspects of life, we emphasize that it frustrates you through a scattered and emotional nature.

*Your name Marcellas is a dual influence: at times you can be extremely happy, expressive, full of fun, and good-natured; yet at other times you find congenial association impossible, being controlled by self-pity, moods, and depression.

*If you could only express the constructive qualities and restrain the negative qualities of your nature, you would always be good company.

*These contrasting qualities make it difficult for people to understand you and can lead to friction in your personal life.

*You are deep, philosophical, and refined, but your extremely sensitive nature causes you to become depressed over any real or imagined slight.

Um mm... Okay. Thanks Joia. That is from Kabalarians.com. Did you know for a moment I considered studying Kabbalah? Yeah, yeah, yeah. I was gonna play the game. But the red string clashed with my outfits. And that water is expensive. I even considered Scientologly. Talk about expensive. I ain't Kirstie Alley! Who can afford that? Anyway go find out what your name means. It's kinda cool. And no their meaning doesn't apply to me so all the haters, stop your haterration and stop shaking your heads up and down and going, "Exactly. He's just what his name means!" I'm not. I'm so much more than that. And besides I'd be the same if my name were Jon or Tim, just not as glam. The name Marcellas is like an announcement. Of more to come.

HOLD...FOR PLANE.

2006-05-30T11:14:00.000-07:00

So I'm on hold. In suspended animation. Waiting for the other shoe to drop. In a crazy elevator caught listening to weird muzak. The summer looms ahead as I sit wondering what the hell am I going to do. I usually look forward to the summer. I mean really who doesn't, right? When you are a child you look forward to summer vacation. When I became an adult and began modelling I loved summer. It was my busiest season. And all my friends would pour into the States from all over the World. It was fun. As the host of House Calls: The Big Brother Talk Show I've felt the same way. Every summer I know Big Brother is coming and my gig will be back. I look forward to making new friends and being silly. Now as Big Brother All Stars looms I'm in even more of a state. Am I doing it? Will I be back for House Calls? I just shot another pilot which brings my total pilots since 2002 to 15. Will that pilot get picked up before Big Brother/House Calls and will I be doing that instead? The mind reels.

One thing remains consistent, whatever I do I gotta go to the gym. Ya can't be too thin and the camera adds 10 lbs. Right across your ass, thigh and abdomen. A very smart woman, (Oprah) once said, "Nothing tastes as good as thin." Well she never had the banana cupcake or the coconut chocolate cupcake from Sprinkles or the pecan bear caramel apple from Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory. I have (yesterday) and that's even more reason to hit the gym! The funny thing is that though I'm on hold, the World around me moves forward. I don't wanna work. Period. I've got money in the bank and more coming in everyday for doing plenty of nothing. Right now I'm content just going to the gym, taking 5 mile walks with Mel and hanging out laughing with friends. But life doesn't stop. The phone rings, it's my agents. "You have a model booking." "Um mm, what?" Check my email, it's my friend Nik. "Hey handsome, so you're booked for Before and After'noon Movie." I'm happy and blessed and grateful but @ the same time I just wanna stay home. Or go shopping @ Barney's.

So did you see me on How Do I Look? It was a cute episode. Though once again I didn't get picked! I'm such a huge competitor. I don't like to lose. The hardest part about Big Brother 3 wasn't getting played by Danielle and Jason, I can live with being lied to, the hardest part was losing to those los... Excuse me... those wonderful children of God. I can't believe I didn't get picked! I approached that make-over like a paid client. I did the research. I listened. Ascertained her needs! I pulled back and showed restraint. With HDIL it's always the hair that kills you. The make-overee will love your outfits but if you go too far with hair and make up you are done. Well this time I chose the soft waves and sun-touched tresses of Kelly Clarkson. If there is one thing Kelly, our fave AI winner gets right it's that hair! And what does the make-overee go and do? She chooses the most radical haircut! And the outfits that show the most cleavage! What a dirty rip!? I can't believe she didn't pick my collection! That pink embellished top and blue skirt with vintage inspired shoe was gorgeous! Ah well... I'm the Susan Lucci of How Do I Look. Finola says they will keep bringing me back till I win.

Here are some stills from my latest gig, Before and After'noon Movie. It airs August 19th. I did a make-over on a tween who is moving to teen. I also made-over her bedroom. Emma is so cute! And so is Henry. My very good friend Nik is the director. She's also the person who suggested I do Big Brother 3 in the 1st place. Nik thanks!

Taylor beat Katherine. It was the ultimate season of the replicant on American Idol. Taylor is a low-rent Michael McDonald, Takin' It To The Streets. Lest Taylor Keep Forgetting we're Not In Love Anymore, I hope he realizes that Hey, he ain't 19 and puts out that Clive Davis over-produced Adult Contemporary album that my crystal ball sees looming in his future. And please do it and release it and get it over with whilst I'm away this summer. That is not music I shall be listening to during my vacation. And what do I spy in my little eye for Katherine (KindaKelly)? The national tour of Hairspray.

Brad and Angie had THE BABY. It's kinda like The Omen. This can't end well. No matter what I see unhappiness in that kids' future. A Lindsay Lohan for the pre-K set. Can't you see the paparazzi following Shiloh to her 1st day of preschool? She all turned out in denim romper not made in a 3rd world country. Speaking of which is there such a thing as a second world country? I digress, Brad and Angie reportedly sold the pics of their newborn for...wait for it...it's coming...$4.9 million! Ah...I just came. Sorry but that kind of money gets me really excited. You realize most of us won't see that kind of money in our ENTIRE LIFETIMES. Brad and Angie got it for having unsafe sex.

Only in Hollywood. Only in Hollywood.

12 Of 12...IV

2006-05-13T12:05:00.000-07:00

Four.

So this is what I do for a living. I'm a fashion stylist. Not a hair stylist. Not a food stylist. A fashion stylist. Sometimes. Most of my life is spent on camera but when not, a boy has to eat and there are many salespeople whose families depend on the fact that I use my living room as my closet because I have too many clothes! My roommate is not happy. Actually E is a peach and doesn't care. Why should he? The clothes are new and cool! And my closet is his.

Anyway an amazing photographer, Karl Simone, was in town shooting editorials and as things worked out he needed a stylist. I was available. The models being shot were cute and from phone convos, exceedingly nice.

Without further ado, here they are. 12 Of 12 plus 1. They speak for themselves. Gui, Nick and Colin were each sweet and very cute. Gui is the hottest and so sweet in that "Brazilian-Giselle-Adriana-I'm so much hotter than you coz of genetics" way. What is it about Brazilian models? Always happy and smiling, charming and sweet. Nick Auger is a superstar waiting to happen. I'll be saying "I worked with him when" soon. And Colin, the Asian Sensation? So cute and fun. And the scruff is wickedcrazysexycool.

And that is a wrap. A day in the life of me. 13 pics of me having a moment.

M*

THE WEEK THAT WAS...

2006-05-01T14:48:00.000-07:00

So It's been a bit since I posted. I've been strangely busy. I got fat on the set of my show, Remixed. Way too much craft services and way too little working out. My big butt swelled to an alarming 191 pounds. If it were muscle that would have been one thing. But it wasn't. I'm a brother. A Black man. I carry weight around my ass, thigh and abdomen. Baby had back. And I don't like that! Since I was holding I continued to buy new clothes to cover my ever-expanding waist! I like shopping. I like it better when buying a 32 waist. Well it's back! The combo of the master cleanse and my new Big approved work out regimen have me down to a svelte 177. I still have a little back. The thighs are gone but now I must rediscover my abs! And quick! Swimsuit season approaches. And you never know, I may be forced to don a purple speedo again...

I was invited to the Daytime Emmys this year. As you know I'm Micah Okwu on The Bold and The Beautiful. When I auditioned for the role I was told it was a recurring character. It was an awesome achievement for me as they didn't just give it to me because I was on Big Brother. I had to read for the role. I beat out other actors. Now they need to bring my character back!

The Emmys were fun. It's different to be a guest than to do red carpet interviews as Gretchen and I did for the prime time Emmys last year. I got to walk the red carpet. It was fun. This year the Emmys moved from New York to LA. The fans were insane! So excited! And so sweet. Of course I had to keep mum about my summer plans. Which is easy as I haven't decided what I want. The dream is to have a legitimate gig. Something non-reality. I've fought really hard to distance myself from the "reality taint" but stay in enough to still be a part of the Big Brother family. I'm proud to have done BB. It changed my life. For all the bad things (crazy net fans, rumors, loss of privacy) it's provided so many good things.

The best thing to happen recently is my work with Project Angel Food. I raised just under $6,000. Which is kinda bittersweet as I really thought that all the rich "friends" I have would have stepped up to the plate and donated. I'm shocked how many people ignored my emails. And calls. I'm also shocked how many "fans" didn't donate. How many people sit around and discuss me and my actions but when asked to help me did nothing. It's a powerful lesson. Fame/infamy mean nothing. It's what you do with those things that matter. I got to meet some of the clients of Project Angel Food on Sunday. These are people who are battling serious life-threatening disease. And they were nicer, kinder and more appreciative than I could imagine. And they were alive. And happy. I am inspired by them.

A few people really touched me during this fundraising adventure. My blog mate Clay who is a med student and one-time resident of Nawlins was the 1st person to donate. He's a student and I know he needs money but he gave within an hour of asking. And then he found extra money and gave more. We've never met but share a love of DeGrassi. I know he'll make a great doctor because he has compassion. A member of my forum Neena, gave me $2,000. Neena sends me great emails when I seem down. Like if I'm being bashed on the net. She tells me what a great person I am and how I'm an inspiration. She also tells me to stay strong. I like to believe what Neena says. It gives me a goal to aspire to. Neena's mom died recently. She said in the days before she would read her mom my blog entries and they would laugh together. She thanks me for that! I thank Neena for being my friend. And an angel who though she was going through her own pain reached out so generously when I asked and helped so many.
Which brings me to Tina: Tina is a member of my forum and when she got the email from me asking for donations she started her own team. And she personally raised over $1,700 for PAF. I got to meet her on Sunday and she was, warm and funny and kind and she made my day. And she thanks me for telling her about the event? Tina I thank you for your compassion and giving to others! And for being so sweet to me.

I have to thank the Angel Mafia. We raised almost $8,500! Chad you were an awesome captain and are proving to be an awesome friend. Jenna you are outrageous and crazy and a ray of light. Jerri! We don't know each other very well but I've always felt a connection to you. I kinda feel like your journey on Survivor mirrored my Big Brother stay. And you are one hell of a bowler! James, you are an absolute fox and one of the nicest boys in Hollywood. It's so good to see you stay the same in the midst of this craziness. And you looked good in those jeans! David you are a crazy force of nature. I thank you for joining the Mafia. Erika, we "Day 69'ers" must stick together! You are as beautiful inside as out. Sarah I'm going to take you up on that offer to teach me to drive. Thanks for lending your serene beauty to BFA. And last but by no means least my pal/partner in crime/BFF Valerie; you make every event more fun, every day funnier and my life so much more glam. I'm so happy we've become friends. Kaya is crazy.

Many many people donated to Bowling For Angels on my behalf. I want to say here, in my little patch of blue, thank you. Thank you for your gift. Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for your selflessness. And thank you for being a part of my life.